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rat within the grain
... i cannot seem to stop listening to damien rice today; more specifically this song. and cannonball. and the blower's daughter. they lend themselves well to depression and other self.loathing feelings. my biggest fear is that i'm going to fuck ziya up somehow, considering my inability to escape myself ( Read more... ) -
moving on
i've decided to continue blogging at a different spot. blogspot. someone has taken my internet name though, and haven't even put it to good use! they made ONE. stupid blog.. and haven't updated it in years. what a waste of my good name ( Read more... ) -
independent woman
i took ziya into the kitchen this morning and put her into her bouncie, which i call her 'big girl seat' since she sits there all by herself like she doesn't need me at all, which makes me want to cry a lil bit. not even 4 months old and she is already sneaking out and stealing my car to go to waffle house and smoke cigarettes with her friends ( Read more... ) -
vegetarian ham
i don't care who ya are, this is a good recipe ( Read more... ) -
i'm a mom, talk to me?
now that i have a child, people come up and talk to me all the time. ziya is a people magnet. i don't mind talking to people, but, i wonder why no one in this neighborhood ever talked to me before. i wasn't asking anyone for a sit.down, just a reply to my deuces and 'what's up', 'how's it going.' neh. neh! i don't consider myself, on most ( Read more... ) -
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i remember going to various home decorating supply stores growing up. that was a large part of my childhood, actually. the only 'shopping' i enjoyed. still the same. while waiting for my mom to do her thing, i would sit down and flip through the wallpaper mags. or push my fingers across paint swatches. fabric swatches. i loved them all. i' ( Read more... ) -
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sometimes i come here wanting to make a post, but instead i just look at my hair trying to find split ends. -
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since delivering this amazingly, wonderful, ball of beautiful light and perfection, i have suffered from several changes in my body. things that are, well, shitty. both of my wrists feel like they pop out of joint and hurt all the time, but mostly my right one. i read that you can get pregnancy.induced arthritis, or carpal tunnel and i'm not ( Read more... ) -
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if you hire someone to come steam clean anything and they suggest you buy other cleaning shit that's gonna do all this magical crap, tell em NO! we just had jerry's chair steam cleaned, and it worked just fine. we were cleaning blood off of suede, p.s.
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once again, i have missed cirque du soleil. chris got us tickets to surprise me because he knows how much i've always wanted to go. i never went because it's so expensive. i've never been able to justify that... but, he wanted to do something awesome for me and he found this really great deal to get tickets for half price. but... ziya didn't ( Read more... )