AAHH! How am I meant to do this? This right here is not only unrequited love but sexual frustration too. I need to get myself a boyfriend and forget all about Deirdre.

Yeah right.

Hello everyone. Remember me? No, I didn't think so. I miss you all and I'm sorry I've been so busy. I'm trying to make more time for my friends now because it's horrible not to see you all ( Read more... )

So since I got back a few days ago I've been trying to focus on nothing to do with Deirdre. Which is hard. But it makes me think about things ( Read more... )

Duncun told me to follow my heart. Told me to follow her if she was what I wanted. Can I just let everything go? I'm here with he and Ronnie and I can't stop thinking about her. What happens when she goes away for good?

I don't even know how to tell Joanne.

That's not FAIR! That's not fair to put me on the spot like that and say 'move to South Africa with me!'

THAT'S NOT FAIR, DEIRDRE!

And...oh god, the fact that you want me now makes me feel so many things at once, and glad is only a small part. More than that there's confused and scared. I've seen her and Renee together. I've seen them and now ( Read more... )

Finally got a call from London Ballet.

I didn't get the role :(

I'm feeling kind of homesick so alot of these photos are of Ronnie. I miss her and Duncun:(

( We really were Double Trouble )

I HATE this. I hate seeing them flirting the way they do in every post. It hurts.

I want Duncun. He'd make it better :(

Renee's home. I don't know what I expected.

I don't want to be in love with her anymore. How do I make myself stop?

Do you want to come stay over? we can eat ice-cream and watch movies and do girly things like that. I could really use a friend right now and you and Deirdre are my best friends.

Okay, Livejournal is sometimes far too icky.