"i've been burdened with blame
trapped in the past for too long
im movin on..."
-rascal flatts [im movin on]

so yeah...
life happens...

today i went and talked to fr. g.....

that man is really one amazing person. 
i talked... he talked back...
i cried.... he listened....
i laughed... he laughed....
it was so nice though... i never thought he was ( Read more... )

october hates me.  there's really nothing else for you to know.

tomorrow, the 9th is the one year anniversary of something that isn't really good... nothing that i want to mention though.

and i just found out that eddie will be going to fort dicks, new jersey on the 25th. of all days to go.  and then after he completes some kind of training ( Read more... )

well well well.  here it is. 
its a certain somebody's birthday.  and i remember this?  i haven't talked to him in hmm... 2 years... and i still remember his freaking birthday?  why do i do this to myself?

i guess ill just have to sit back and laugh about it, casue as gram says... "its better to laugh about things than to cry about them..."
the ( Read more... )

i was walking through st. leonards on friday when i looked and actually noticed that fall had arrived.  i smiled. 
i think fall has become my new favorite.  sweaters go on, but if you really think about it, they're not really needed.  the leaves fall and leave a freshly fallen leaf smell.  they remind me of when it was just maggie and i, before any ( Read more... )

wow. 
so today, during my extreme boredom, i remembered that i once had a diary on teenopendiary.com wayyyy back in the day... let me look at the date of it.. hold on... 11/24/02.  thats a long time ago.  2 years. lol.  annyywayyy... at that time in my life, things were... haha, how do i say this... hmm... difficult?!  and i became quite a writer ( Read more... )

water is the coolest thing in the world.  it really is.  that and the way your legs feel right after you shave them.

i feel kinda weird right now.  i don't know why either.  its almost like... well, its really not something that can be explained.  ill try my best though.

something has happened in my life.  maybe you've heard about it, maybe you ( Read more... )

well... how else do i say this...
shit happens.

sometimes things get said that shouldn't. 
and sometimes things that should be said never do.

and the crimes between people grow deeper (as my dear friend and soul mate dave matthews would say it)

there are a lot of monsters in the closet that are now being let out.  which is good.  its always ( Read more... )

do you ever feel like you're living in a movie?  i mean, you say to yourself, "i've seen this before."  and then you start thinking of all the dramatic scenes that actors or actresses have acted out.  maybe you look to those movies for advice. 
and maybe you're like me and just walk around, hoping that an answer will land in your lap... falling ( Read more... )

<> negative.
one word that has described me lately. maybe this all sounds jumbled to you, but i don't think so. anyway, i need a new beginning. and i figure, why put it off when you can just start over now.
i need to be alive again. no, really. i really need to just be me and stop putting things off and being lazy and actually caring about what ( Read more... )

i'm sure you're wondering what's gonig on. well here it is. im starting over. i need a fresh start. and im not wasting any time.