i cant stand you anymore
you were never really there to help me out
you were always off somewhere
theres always an awkward moment when i'm around

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constantly alone
you're in my thoughts all the time
and i hate you for that

stay away from me and dont bother to speak

So stop me now,
stop my thoughts because you're killing me.
But you don't ( Read more... )

and i got burn
with a cigarette

.the tingle still lingers.

everyone just go to sleep.

let me enjoy this. before the sun rises.

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and the moment of truth came.
dont know what to do.
the awkward moment.
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wish i can call you
talk to you of whats racing through my mind.
but thats the impossible thing.
i still miss you.

if you only ( Read more... )

hmm. well then ( Read more... )

i just want to drop down to my knees
wondering how did it happen
to get where we are now

cry out in pain
of how to move on

but the question forms to mind
.does it hurt?.

i hate old fashion chinese clutures.
its horrible, wrong and just not right to do
maybe thats why my parents came here from china

okay. i have something to say ( Read more... )

guess what

i'm getting braces.
so excited

cant wait cant wait.
getting them on ASAP

now i am going to be pretty
after i get them off.

next on my list:
to get a sugar glider/convince my dad to get me one
yeah. thats gonna be a toughie
hm. any suggestions?
always open to them heh. espeically at that part.

want to break all my bones
in my body.
guilty.tramp.expose.

let the memories replay like a broken record

i've done it before.
why is this any different?
.its not.

should not be thinking these thoughts
.i am a bad person.
but i want it badly

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Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep that chin up you'll be alright
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?

ARGH. this is getting annoying.
do something about
running out of patience. if you dont do it, then i will.. somehow.
****
let the talking cease
turn off the lights
make it pointless.

stohartaigenoyutbuinatwosuyobdlya
uckf it. its messed up anyways