The past couple days haven't been so bad. I passed my drug test......which just made me want to celebrate my doing more haha. I've been listening to dispatch alot lately and the song "two coins" especially.

"I stick loneliness, you lips
and the two coins of your eyes
into my pockets

well the train skates into
Port Henry late sunday
sometimes when I'm ( Read more... )

All I want to do is SLEEP and its impossible. Normally I would take lots of pills to knock me out, but I actually have to get up before noon tomorrow...and don't want to be half asleep. I'm exhausted all day, but for some reason when I lay down at night--I'm WIDE awake. AHHH. Okay, just wanted to get that out....gonna go try to sleep, wish me luck!

Lately I have been bored out of my mind!! I'm not currently in school, I don't have a job, and because of my ED...I tend to isolate myself and/or refuse to see people. I hate waking up because I know I'll be forced with two choices: eat or eat some more. Its caused me to gain 20+ lbs in the last 3/4 months going from my all time low of 98lbs, to ( Read more... )

Okay. I have noooo idea if anyone even reads this, but I've decided I'm going to try to write on a daily basis.  Lately I've felt kinda lost...with friends, my own well-being....everything. I used to have so many friends, but since my ED took over--I've isolated myself to the extreme!!! My goals are--- 1) To reconnect to the people I love. 2) ( Read more... )

"Another day has almost come and gone ( Read more... )