sometimes i'm really kind of impulsive and careless. in fact, i've cared so much that i think i've stopped caring. this probably doesn't make much sense. i guess i'm just in a good spot in my life since i'm not worried about how people view me, if i'm good enough, etc. but i feel bad, because i feel like i'm being reckless and selfish. hmmmm ( Read more... )

this weekend was really really awesome in many ways ( Read more... )

i keep getting this sick feeling that the three years or so i had a boyfriend don't mean a damn thing. he's treating someone else the way i always wanted to be treated, and it's so hard to hear about. it makes me feel like i wasn't worth it, or else he would've done the same things for me. like every special moment we had is meaningless now, ( Read more... )

the second something good happens, somehow my life decides to complicate it.

blah.

"melanie gilman....you're phenomenal"

can i just say, life is SO fucking good right now?? :-D

my life just took the most amazing turn ever.

i really, really, really hope this goes somewhere. =)

me and jen each got a kitten today! i named mine Mia. if you can guess where i got the name from, props to you. she's the softest animal in the world. the other kitten isn't even as soft. i love them both. check out my missmel08 webshots to see them. =)

life is so fabulous lately. i hope it's a continuing trend.

i haven't seen the homeless man since last friday. i hope he's okay. it's sad to know that if something happens to someone homeless, no one will report them missing, or try to search for them. although, i find it ironic that he chose the heart of our campus as his place to live. i think it's so cruel that thousands of kids half his age walk by ( Read more... )

i'm in this really hyper, goofy mood and i can't fall asleep. i keep singing in crazy voices and making funny faces and dancing in my seat while i wait for internet pages to load. (okay, i'm weird) the party i went to last weekend had the most amazing idea ever, and i thought i'd share it with everyone, because i think every party should implement ( Read more... )

i've realized slowly that the problem i've been caught up in has been one of whether or not i should sacrifice things in order to attain what will make me happy, or if i should stand up for myself and lose those things so that i'll stop feeling pathetic. for a long time now, fighting for my happiness, and treating people as good as i can, and being ( Read more... )