I feel as if I am fighting a losing battle. The irony is that if I quit, I'm a failure. All of us are constantly walking on eggshells and yet we still pathetically fail at life. I don't quite understand it and I don't think I am suppose to. It's a natural phenomenon of a catch 22 that seems go full cycle every couple months...each time getting more ( Read more... )

2007 was like a dream. It was like a movie that you watch and you scream at the main charcter to not walk into the room and they do anyway ( Read more... )

I spend my mornings running to class...my days rushing around an office...and my evenings laying around wishing everything were back to the way it used to be. I love my life right now with the support system I've screwed up to the point of no return and my other friends that have seemingly disappeared into a world I have left behind ( Read more... )

So help me God, if I find out this is true...

...you will finally get your wish. I'll leave.

Not because you choose it. Because I won't be able to look at you the same...or even want to look at you at all.

Thank you for everything. You have done more than enough.

Christmas. Check.

New Years. Check.

Birthday. Check.

First play. Almost check.

_________. Dang it. I'm working on fixing that. I thought I was doing well...until I looked at my phone and saw it glowing. Self-control only goes so far.

"you know that you have to decide what you want, too."

My life plays like a romantic comedy. Pun after pun after pun.

It's purely fantasy fiction to be put simply. We go round and round. Whoever thought of the symbolism behind the circle should die if he hasn't already.

Never believe everything you are told. We are all compusive liars. At least that is what my Mom tells me everyday.

We are told to learn from our mistakes and to never make them again. The past should be left dead. First time, shame on you, second time shame on me, right ( Read more... )

everything happends for a reason, right?

I just realized that all of the advice that i said this morning...i should listen to it myself.

thank you for waking me up...even though you will never reade this.

Jess made the mistake the other day of asking what was wrong with me. She told me she likes to understand people and that this summer she has felt like we have become closer together. I tried to explain how my family works. The whole "suppert system." Jess told me that she thinks that I'm not a bad kid but I make myself believe that I am from what ( Read more... )

today i was thinking of the Dallas Art Museum. Why? I'm not sure. I figured that if i focused on a certain subject then the screaming children in the store would eventually become non-existant. I remember this one paining. It was probably about 8 feet tall and 10 feet wide. It is the only thing that i can remember from 3 years ago. I sat and stared ( Read more... )