alright, i think just as i once did the deadjournal, although for different reasons, its time to close the livejournal chapter of my life. i no longer know that i want people peering in on my life, plus its not as exciting as it used to be. so, im moving over to myspace permanently, not that i plan to keep much of a journal on there, cause thats ( Read more... )

the dogs are out of control. not mickey, shes good. but the puppies. kaya and marley are no longer the mellow puppies they once were, i tried to go into their room today to say good morning and see if they had been fed and clean up some of their mess, and i got attacked. like its ridiculous, all the barking and clawing and jumping up on me, and ( Read more... )

it seems that every day i work i get at least one table from hell. i wish people would realize im trying my hardest. its like, dont shoot the messanger. its shitty that i get tipped poorly cause the chef screws up the food. i mean, granted i still make almost three times as much as i would at beagle bagel, but still....the lunch shifts go well ( Read more... )

I just sat down for 10 minutes and wrote my Artist Statement. If they dont think im completely insane after they read this, i dont know what will convince them. i was rambling and i dont even know if it makes sense, but i dont even know what an artist statement is supposed to sound like. but for pure enjoyment purposes, here it is ( Read more... )

i dont know why, but theres certain songs, and no matter what, when i listen to them something so strong is evoked from inside of me. i dont know what it is, its like a rejoicing and a yearning at the same time. its as if it resonates from my whole being. a huge swelling inside that i neither understand nor want to repress. i dont know if im just ( Read more... )

what i need is superglue. but all i have is elmers. its working temporarily, but how long before it melts again and everything falls apart. i went to the movies tonight. and saw rent. it seems no matter where i go, what i do, watch, see or hear, heroin follows me. its this constant reminder of my life. and it just doesnt stop. i dont know if im ( Read more... )

where to even begin. life is a swimming pool engulfing me. and i am now in over my head. i want to reatreat back to lizaland. where i dont have and responsibilites, cares, or worries. but once again, im a grown up now. a fear ive had all my life. and just by principle im a scumbag. but i think even if i werent such a fuck up, id be just as ( Read more... )

mayonnaise? mustard? lettuce? tomato? onion? sprouts ( Read more... )

i just spent a night by the fire in my new apartment playing poker. like, im excited to move in now, even more so, so i can look forward to more nights like this. it was great. cant say i won any money, but i did break even, which is more than others can say. still a little confused about the whole matt situation, i saw him tonight, but not ( Read more... )

alright, so, yesterday was a horrible day. work waas insane and intense, it was so crazy that i thought i was going to pass out for awhile, everytime i looked up i got dizzy, so i decided to eat, only to find that that made me really nauseous. then i get home, whatever, go to group, get told i now cant move out till november 20th. then go to ( Read more... )