Ok... Let's go ( Read more... )

I just want to feel something that's real. Something that I can quantify. Why should I deny myself that ( Read more... )

I really don't understand some women. Well, I do. I am one so I know why exactly it is they have this horrible attitude. But it seems to be the middle aged ones with the worst problems. Or maybe it's just the environment I'm in. It breeds micro-managing perfectionists that must be severely insecure and must use their position to assert their power ( Read more... )

My stomach is full of butterflies, slowly but methodically flipping. My chest feels deep and empty that I can feel my heart pounding aginst my rib cage. I can feel my pulse everywhere. My breath getting caught in my throat ( Read more... )

Growing up, I was always a bit of a tomboy. I was the feral girl playing with Transformers or TMNT toys, collecting bugs and spiders or just all round getting grubby. Even now I love watching sport - even if I can't talk about the intricate details of the ins and outs of each code or name every players stats, I enjoy watching the game for what it ( Read more... )

Another relapse. I seem to be having a few lately. I can't really say that it's behind me now ( Read more... )

When will I ever learn? I shouldn't ever get close to someone. All it causes is heartache and misery. How many times do i need to get hurt before I realise I should never let someone get close to me ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder how I'm going to make it through all of this. All of life. Forever wanting to be more than I am. Forever being disappointed in myself. In others. Wanting, longing for an unattainable dream. Being told constantly what I should want, what I should need, how I should act, that my thoughts and feelings aren't right. Having people not ( Read more... )

I can't believe I'm resorting back to old habits. I thought I had moved on. That I was stronger than that. A moment of weakness undid years of hard work and determination. Weak. That's all I am. I wasn't strong enough to fight it. I had become more than this, it wasn't who I was anymore But now... It came back. The temptation was too great and I ( Read more... )

Hello. My name is The Lizard Queen... And it's been four days since my last drink. *clap clap clap clap clap ( Read more... )