Well...lots has happened in the past week. Asha came down to see me last weekend, surprised me and I couldn't have been happier. We talked about a lot of stuff, but for some reason, at the end, felt like all we did was talk so that we could move on to other things. I think all the conversation was productive and the things that were said are ( Read more... )

Okay so of course lots has changed in the past 48 hours. Monday night my girl and I had a huge fight on IM. Then as of 4:47 Tuesday afternoon we weren't going to talk until she came down (what I wanted from the beginning) and then she called later and we talked and managed to get to a point that we are talking. Not about what has been going on, but ( Read more... )

Okay, so today was interesting. Eating like crap- not going there right now. Very productive work wise. I just can't seem to avoid talking to her, and I don't want to. Except now she is the one who is more held back. I think that is what I will have to do in order to get through these few weeks. I don't know what to do or how to read my feelings. ( Read more... )

okay so this is going to become my new therapy tool i think. wow, life sucks right now. my girlfriend and i are not really talking (although we did have a long convo tonight), my car won't start, i have no money, school work is due this week, job situation is complicated and none of my friends seem to be around when i need them ( Read more... )

Okay, so it isn't "easy" any more. Not sure it ever was, but now I feel like shit. I think I am done being mad at my girlfriend and ready for things to be okay again. It hurts so much to not have her in my life right now. I can't stop crying... Part of me wants to just move on with my life and knows I should be able to, but it isn't that easy. Part ( Read more... )

I have had a long day!

Travelling really drains you. Anyways, not much today, except that I almost had a fire in my kitchen cause my roommate doesn't clean up after herself!!!!!!!!! ARGH!

Modified adtkins and mucho excerise beginning tomorrow. we will see how it goes and progress will be reported here :)

No gym til i have money lol.

Phones are very powerful things. At least I am realizing this as these days pass. I can't avoid answering it or checking messages. I suppose it is a good thing though because I talked to my girlfriend this morning and she sounds much better, at least not crying and wants to talk sooner than before xmas. So, that will most likely happen. Things seem ( Read more... )

Wow...it is hard to be away from the one you love at this time. Especially when you are fighting or going through a rough time. My girlfriend and I are not talking right now, but she called this afternoon...crying. I am not sure what to think. I know that I have been very optimistic about her coming to the conclusion that she wants to be with me, ( Read more... )

Well...this will be my first entry into this journal. I am not sure how fitting it is for this entry to be about a crazy part of my life at the moment, but that happens to be what I feel like sharing with my world ( Read more... )