I don't know where to start. I almost feel guilty if I miss a detail of any of my days... as if I'm going to look back and try to remember every aspect of my life. So here I go:

On Sunday I drove to Nichole's for her Birthday :) Ofcourse I got lost only when I entered her development because I honestly am that retarted. Her friend Kaycie (who I ( Read more... )

Wow. I think I can honestly say that I am about 86 percent better. I have never felt so happy, well kind of. I know that it is not gone for good though, because it's a disease I can't get rid of and I will most likely be stuck with for the rest of my life. But I can always "treat" it. How scary is it that I'm in a constant battle against my own ( Read more... )

Yesterday, Hannah and I picked up two noodles from Bayville then left them in Manahawkin and dipped out to Batsto ;) From that road we wanted to see what would happen and eventually landed in Hammonton. Whaaat the piss. So today, her mom gave me her GPS and I'm borrowing and we're just gonna switch off!

So we went to the Cherry Hill mall. It's ( Read more... )

1. I am a fuck n' chuck ( Read more... )

Rob sent me home from work a few hours because of the snow and helped me wipe the snow off my car; it was nice to know someone cared even though he voted me Employee most likely to kill everyone yesterday. I was kinda happy to come home early and relax and work on my research paper so I can remove that stress off my shoulders. But all I hear is my ( Read more... )

Today I took myself off the pill I've been taking for weeks, and I felt great :). It might be just because of the weather, or maybe I could be healing! I hope I am. But either way I was so surprised that I felt okay taking myself off of it because it's been told to make people crazy. But basically and very surprisingly I can say I had a good day ( Read more... )

I think the back of my head is trying to tell me something. I'll be completely obliterated to the point that I can't even push a door open without convulsing or hold a conversation without feeling like my brain is going to explode, and I'll think I see this person. Honest to fucking God. I thought I saw him and he was calling my name so I went over ( Read more... )

Weeks later and I'm still suffering. and today was Tuesday, and they to me are hell, the only time I had and usually have between the day is my rush to get ready. And I missed free pancake day :'(
7 - 2: school, obviously
2 - 3: detention
4 - 11: work

I guess what gets me going through the day is the thought of my future. I'm still convinced that one ( Read more... )

I haven't written much lately but that's probably because I don't have much to say. With this disease or whatever I should be calling it, I feel like life has been giving up on me. So why shouldn't I give up on it? Then at times it makes me remember how lucky I am to even be alive. It's the moodiest I've been in a while and that says a lot. This ( Read more... )

My day! was bullshit. Tomorrow, or should I say 5 hours from now is my last of my pills. I need three a day, and I'm missing one? Either my head knowing one's missing, or just having one missing isn't gonna complete my happy mood. And what the fuck am I going to do with out them? I see how things get addicting, I don't even remember what these ( Read more... )