sometimes i just get so negative! ignore my last entry. while true, its not representative of any feelings i have anymore. i just don't care. this weekend i went to princeton with mike howard and ian. and had fun. and then saturday i went to parlin/sayreville and went bowling and to dans. now i'm at mike w. s house waiting for my ride homeeeeeee. ( Read more... )

i think the most depressing aspect of reaching 17 years of age is that not one of my friends got me a single birthday present. idk, maybe i just think too much on these things. exception only to mike, who bought me a ticket to and got me drunk at the cursive show. much thanks. he was the only one.

adventures! even during school ( Read more... )

i'm so confused. i don't know what to think. i cna't believe my actions. and while they're forgivable with time, i still lost respect from the people that matter. and i still miss him. and i wish i could go back a million years. and not have to be born. so i wouldn't hurt people, and so he wouldn't hurt me. cuz right now all i feel like doing is ( Read more... )

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i definitly wish i could die right now.
why did i have to love you.

i got the closure i needed. maybe now i can heal properly. maybe i can forget whatever happened ever was. its uncanny how this exact same thing happened last year. only this time around hurt worse. but the reasons were the same, the way i found out was the same, the timing was the same. and each year i sat under the boat in all my clothes, hiding ( Read more... )

sleepless nights are hardly worth the cheapness of your gamei have nothing to walk away with ( Read more... )

well first i randomly recieved this from andrew stockstill, he's such a nice kid.


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i don't want it to work
i don't want him.
i hate this.
fuck this.

fuck your falsehoods.