I MOVED ASK ME FOR MY NEW JOURNAL USER NAME IF YOU DON'T ALREADY KNOW IT...

Yeah so I'll just sit here and wait for the depression to slowly sink in cuz I know that it will. It could be a matter of seconds, mins, or a day...Ugh!! I hate this feeling so bad. Sometimes it makes me wish I never HAD feeling at all. But then again everyone reading this already knows all my feeling toward just about everything (also a reason why ( Read more... )

I don't know if it's just being deeply spiritual at times of if it's my mind mentally fucking with me but I can't tell the difference between fake/dreams and reality and it's really, really, scaring me. It's so confusing, sometimes I don't know if I'm in a dream or if I'm awake or if something really happening or whatever. OmFg it's so hard to ( Read more... )

This will probably be a very confusing entry cuz I'm getting yelled at and trying to consentrate at the same fuckin time ( Read more... )

Hmmm...Sat around till about 1something and Samantha called me. He and Jonathan wanted me to chill. I had to walk to the store anyways. So I just met them there...We went up to the hidden park (which I still say is not that hidden)...Hmmm we just sat around and talked and fuct around being silly n shit. It's so funny Jon is like a lil fuckin kid ( Read more... )

I meant to update last night, I just got really upset over something (you'll see in the end) and I laid in my bed and cried, fell asleep on accident...But here it tis now!! Whatever...**turns and walks away**

Whoa it freaked me out today. Billy was watching "As Told By Ginger", I was in the other room. All the sudden I hear Brandon (513killcrew) Ahahahah ( Read more... )

Yeah well Catherine (oh-Heartbreak) inadvertently made me realize how PATHETIC I really am. And how the summer's almost over, and mine has been a COMPLETE waste. And how when people keep telling me that it will be alright that they are just lying because they can see though me and are truly scared of my pain deep down. They don't want to lose me so they make up ( Read more... )

Ugh...

Hmmm the ugh is from the way I'm feeling currently. As for the rest of the day it was G_R_E_A_T! Tehe...Woke up before Mindy (ikissdrunkboys). Who doesn't wake up before her ;-) ...Hmmmm I planned out my day...Then finally around 1pm she woke up and the day went like this ( Read more... )

Ugh depress mode sinking in...Ugh SADLY Benji...I saw him today n shit and waved to him n Zack and yeah we were walking on the sidewalk and he didn't say anything to me and Mindy (ikissdrunkboys) n I. So we just went to Starbucks like we were going to in the 1st place. He didn't say ne thing. I miss him fer some reason...I missed him lots when he was in N.C. and ( Read more... )

Hmmm today consited of waking up late around 1pm...Montie came over for about an hour or 2. Ummm...

Learned how to make some Blinkies...

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