I actually did hit six weeks this time. Some inertia that I've expounded upon for months on end became overwhelming, and I let this thing go. I'm starting to wonder if I've completely lost my ability to trust. Suspicion consumes welcoming, and I push away people who care ( Read more... )

It's just a day. Just the observation of the passing sunlight and the way it manhandles the furniture through the window. I'm patient and I watch the glow fade away to something much brighter in the dead of night. Mark an X off on the floor and make it hum with elegance. Drown out the noise with perfect silver silence and a joke just to break ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a very wonderful woman's birthday. Happy birthday, Miranda. I hope this year treats you well ( Read more... )

I go through one of these every few months. I hit that patch where I feel stagnant, there's this itch to leave wherever I currently am. Henry's noticed it more and more these days. He's very perceptive, and has made a remark along the lines of, "Dad, you need to get out more," several times. I'm thinking of taking him on a trip, going somewhere ( Read more... )

Finally got to see my favourite twins again, Tegan and Sara. Sara and I especially had some talking to do, we barely even bothered with pleasantries. It's been too long since I've seen either of them, and...well, let's just say things have changed. I loved seeing them, although I'm not sure they were entirely comfortable with the way I was. I ( Read more... )

A breif note: If you don't know it's election day by now, you are in need of some help. You must have been living in a cave on Mars with your eyes closed and your thumbs in your ears, humming loudly for the last ten thousand years. So for all of you NOT in caves on Mars, vote if you're eligible. I won't shove my politics down your throat, ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to me. Thank you all who sent me birthday wishes, and thank you Hayden for the wonderful cookies. They were excellent. Sara called me today, and I had just then realized how long it had been since we had spoken, or seen each other for that matter. But it felt like no time had elapsed, like we were picking up exactly where we left ( Read more... )

I can't say I really want to talk about what happened. He's gone now, and that's all I have to say about that. I can't even explain it right now, because that would entail actually thinking about it rather than blotting it out like I've been doing since he left. I've become an expert at not thinking about this whole thing ( Read more... )

It's almost eerie, how routine everything seems. Even the largest changes can't blast through this feeling of uneasy comfortable living. I don't feel unfulfilled, I feel as if everyone around me is. One can't help wonder about the options here. Stay cloistered, branch out, run, stay and fight. Everything sounds so similar when you spell it out ( Read more... )

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