waht is it that i have become? im told now that for years my friends have been saying the most horrible things about me for months and years.. people i trust i respect people who ive been intmatley tied to saying the most hurtfull of things doing the most decietfull of things and holding a former me against me. how am i to progress in their eyes ( Read more... )

but i dont like dancers.... maybe strippers hmmmmm..... WAIT NO NOT EX STRIPPERS!!!! NO !!!! old saggy boobies ewwwwwwwwww

so im at the apartment alone again its like 8pm and i cant find the motovation to do anything but write more depressing shit but it feels good so deal with it ( Read more... )

so practice sucked, i fought my worst ever. dissappointed / releived that katrina didnt show, amused to watch as ashely is in the state i was in like a week ago still fighting for her life to bring mike back and i hope he does but more likey hes gone for good to another person as well ( Read more... )

ill get over it ( Read more... )

it was just before dawn one misrable moring in black 44 ( Read more... )

ive taken to the dark poetry so i write when i can what i can while these are the emotions i feel and i AM NOT DANGEROUS TO MY SELF its other you should worry about.. ok ok im not dangerous untill provoked and even provacation doesnt really draw response. but i enjoy the stuff that falls from my mind and hits the keyboard and goes to your screen ( Read more... )

you cant hear me ( Read more... )

so what to do? what to do ( Read more... )

so i called trina at 1am tonight and told her that i just wanted my shit then shed never hear from me again im sick of tying and being avoided. so fuck it she dont care about me shes happy with alex so let her be and let her lose the love she said she had/has cuz she aint comming back to me and i aint waiting for her no more. fuck her if she ( Read more... )