Comments | llivla: [fic] supernatural: deep in my senses i know

llivla

[fic] supernatural: deep in my senses i know

Aug 08, 2009 19:15

Title: Deep in my senses I know
Summary: The day he got desperate and saw Alien Raiders was the same day he got in the car that morning and couldn't find Dean.

Dean: We still got to see the new "Raiders" movie.
Sam: Saw it.
Dean: Without me?
Sam: You were in hell, Dean.
-- Monster Movies

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( you come around in your time, speaking of fabulous places; create an oasis that dries up as soon as you're gone )

agápē: dean and sam are my platonic otp, fic: supernatural

Comments 2

nsilverwolf August 11 2009, 01:39:26 UTC

Had to use the Indy icon for this. There are some mild run ons in this grammatically but that description of all the places and ways that Dean has disappeared from Sam's physical life was absolutely pitch perfect. Because I'd be terrified of forgetting things like someone's laugh, the tone of their voice or the exact way they looked when everything was going right. Sam's horror and grief over that are so utterly easy to relate to for that matter.

Thanks for this, it's heartbreaking but wonderfully done.

llivla August 11 2009, 07:15:15 UTC

I tried to clean it up a little, so thanks for the feedback. We only get a few snapshots of Sam during the summer, but after season three and clues in season four (how casually he mentioned trying to open the DEVIL'S GATE was a 'blink and you miss it' punch in the gut re:Lazarus Rising), all signs point to Sam's head being an epic train wreck until he shut down, and only getting worse after that as cracks continued fissuring his psyche. Grief messes with the best of us, 'it's okay, it's not your fault, it's only natural' doesn't cut it. I drew on similar feelings losing my grandfather, I can remember the sound and drawl of my pet name, but not how he liked his steak. And God, the mess and weight of Sam's issues never fails to break my heart. :(