So I let my paid account expire. Which is actually a good thing since I haven't been posting much here other than private entries to myself when my depression really starts to gnaw on my soul ( Read more... )

So the last few months have been a whirlwind. I got into grad school, I've relocated to CA! I don't know if that was the right thing to do or not but my stuff's on it's way here so I don't really have a choice ( Read more... )

If only my asthma would go away...then I wouldn't feel so crappy. I've resorted to using up the last of my prednisone since my inhalers haven't made a dent for days. This sucks royally ( Read more... )

Finding myself at peace tonight, more so than I was before I left. Yes I can see some decline though subtle over the last two days. But I'm here, until this is over. And that will be enough. Because there isn't any other thing it can be. And I have to be okay with that ( Read more... )

Heading back to NYC tomorrow after a day and a half trip home to Boston ( Read more... )

Sorry to have been so out of writing here regularly. Applying to grad school has sapped much energy as has medical problems both for me (herniated two discs in my back) and for my dad (continued cancer woes and my parents both refusing to talk to someone professionally about their mental healths). I feel like I get home and just barely have ( Read more... )

So Christmas was a lot better than Thanksgiving went. Much less fighting between my parents, good times had by us most of the time in fact. My sister was around to help deflect the moments when tension got abominably bad and I felt less like a pressure cooker than last trip. I introduced Cards Against Humanity to most of my relatives that I see ( Read more... )

What I wouldn't give right now for my leg to not be an aching disaster area ( Read more... )

There are benefits to feeling complacent. I know there are and I know I fall into that routine all to easily. But when that is yanked away, I always hate it ( Read more... )

Well...that didn't last too long. My dad had a CAT scan of his brain last week, since way back when he was diagnosed with lung cancer in February, it had also metastasized to the brain. Due to how aggressively the lung cancer started to act, the radiation treatment he was having done for the brain tumors had to be cut short ( Read more... )