ok, so since I lost the little paper that tells me how to cut things into links to make it easier for the casual onlooker, this will probably be lengthy. Consider yourself warned ( Read more... )

Paul's lack of initiation of contact via MySpace or any other bothered me a bit at first, but only because he is the first one I have opened up to emotionally since the whole Eugene downward spiral of a relationship. Only thing is, he isn't aware that I am interested in him as more than a friend and I am not even sure he is interested in me as more ( Read more... )

This weekend I went out of town. I was invited to a little thing called A//Cafe (Anarchist Cafe) on Saturday. It was to be held about 40 miles away. The easiest way for me to get there was to go by train Friday night and come back Monday morning. I stayed with the person who invited me named Paul. I knew him as "Tall Paul" from a previous ( Read more... )

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover
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tonight... tonight was fantastically amazingly blissfully perfect. My roommate, Lindsay, provided me with a secret prebirthday treat. This treat was, in fact, far more than a treat. It was the treat of all treats. I, my friends, got to not only see the best performance of my life by the ever so amazingly talented Andrew Bird, BUT I got to meet him ( Read more... )

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man, everything is different. He changed the dynamics of it all and being the person I am, I can do nothing but bend over and take it. There seem to be a number of things changing ( Read more... )

I stayed the night... slept like hell because of allergies... and it went alright... but the kisses were empty and he told me today that this morning he realized that it is basically over... so that is that... it is done... and I am left here crying...

I love/d him so much....

Josh, if you read this today, please call me

So Eugene and I talked it out and things were cleared up sort of, but today he said it felt weird to him and that he felt like he needed to distance himself from me because me knowing previously the extent of this relationship and where it was going should have left me no reason to react the way that I did(much crying) and so on and so forth, but ( Read more... )

Today was Eugene's first night back from vacation... he said he had felt more emotional for me while he was away and that he wanted to tell me because it was good, well, good for me, bad for him and he wanted to tell me, but he wanted to tell me to my face. Well, he came by after school and he told me that it was because he was tired and he was ( Read more... )