Being sober and healthy so far has helped out a lot, but it's also made me realize exactly how much of my behavior was the drugs and alcohol, and how much was my disorder. It's a lot more my disorder than I thought it was. I still can't concentrate, still can't make up my mind about anything, still can't feel comfortable about anything for longer ( Read more... )

In two weeks I have an appointment w/ the health center's psychiatrist. The lady that helped me fill out the METRIC SHIT-TON of paperwork told me that between the symptoms I've been having and the shit I've gone through in the past he'll probly put me on anti-anxiety meds. This'll be fun ( Read more... )

So far, moving up here has been ok. I'm already gaining weight, cuz there's always food and most of the stuff I've been eating has been heavy in either carbs or mayo :p ( Read more... )

Things should start to get interesting in the next few days. I'm looking forward to it.

This is the proposed provision for Borderline Personality Disorder for the DSM5 due to come out in 2012 ( Read more... )

Wrote this last night, while contemplating a LOT of things ( Read more... )

No one ever comes on here anyway, so it's as private as I'm gunna get, I suppose ( Read more... )

I can't fucking deal with this shit. Not now. Can't you make it at least a little easy? I'm doing my best to not cause any awkwardness. Can't you?

Most of me just doesn't care any more, it's done and over, and I don't have the time or energy to get worked up about it.
But a part of me wants to just punch everyone in the face.

<3
Anna

Trying to figure out what the hell level of "ok" is ok ( Read more... )