So, it's been a year, and nothing has changed, at all. we still don't talk, i'm still way overlly jealous, and i don't know what love is...I starting to wonder if he really cares for me, which i guess i never knew in the first place...i had a huge chat with my mom a while ago and i totally started crying in the middle of it becasue i don't know how ( Read more... )

It seems as though I only write in this damn thing when I'm upset. Perhaps it's because I don't really have anyone to talk to. It's not that I don't have people to tlak to it's that I don't care to talk to them about my problems, and when I do start I totally regret it. But I am much happier for the time being and content. Although it seems that no ( Read more... )

god, i am so anxious and i hate it. i say i'm ok with things that i may not be. but i want to be, mostly because i hate that i'm not. and i apparently make no sense. i think i really want to be a stipper and make lots of money for a very little amount of work. my boyfriend would freak, but acording to my logic: if he can look at strippers and give ( Read more... )

So i have lots of homework to do, and yet i sit here on my ass chatting and doing odd things, because i'm bored. i am odd. and homework sucks. i don't like my last post so much. i suppose it's ot really a big problem, i was just being a girl. so i'm excited that i might go snowboarding this weekend, but i think dylan might be there...awkward...i ( Read more... )

So I've realized some things, if you let someone get away with things you don't much approve of in the beginning of your relationship with them, those things can never be corrected. you have to live with it, forever...i totally started a relationship for the wrong reasons and ended up falling in love with the boy, mmmm....mistake, not that i would ( Read more... )

i fucking hate this goddamn thing, i just typed a bunch of shit and now it's gone! so i'm going to sum it up really fast and pissy...guys make me disgusted and confused, although mike has really helped me tonight, while making me disgusted in myself and much more confused. you're right mike i deserve better but i put myself in positions where i get ( Read more... )

Stinkfist: "Something has to change. Undeniable dilemma. Boredom's not a burden anyone should bear. Constant over stimulation numbs me and I wouldn't have it any other way. It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't want it. I just need it. To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive. Finger deep within the borderline. Show me that ( Read more... )

recently i had to describe myself and this is the best i could come up with, i'm mentally bored and apathetic to everyday life. i guess that about sums up how i feel right now. i mean i have a new boy and all but i don't know, i definitely don't need another relationship after the last one. i really like him and enjoy what we've got but i mean ( Read more... )

Another day, another dollar. I'm so bored of this life. I know I have tons of shit to do, but no motovation. Why do I do this to myself? I need a purpose, a reason to be. I found a really good quote that expresses how I feel about this here election, "one step closer to the end of the world. the one-two combo of coporate greed and organized ( Read more... )