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lodger

there's more?

Aug 12, 2003 20:22

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whitetide August 13 2003, 02:58:50 UTC

i'm much rather by myself than in a room with 30 people as well. sometimes having so many people around just makes me feel lonelier, out of place, just floating. i function much better one on one than having more than a couple of people around me. nothing's wrong with being a more introverted person, though. as for telling people how much you care, don't worry about it so much, actions mean a lot as well. special little things like a smile or a hug. trust me, you're good at letting people know you care, you sure never failed to show me that.

i'm sure living here happened for a reason (i believe everything in life does). maybe the reason was exactly you learning how to tell people you have a problem with them. and i don't think realizing you have responsibilities is about getting old. you can still be young and silly, but at the same time responsible. and oh, i'm rambling so much.. :) i really loved reading the last two entries. thank you for sharing yourself. much love.

lodger August 13 2003, 03:07:53 UTC

it's not even that i'm introspective, because, like i said, i'd rather do about ten things at the same time as having a conversation with someone. not that they're boring but i feel like i'm wasting time.. but then when i'm around here, it's all different. thanks for being around. you've never been anything short of fantastic.

angrygerbyl August 13 2003, 12:03:16 UTC

Your still not as screwed up as me :P ~~hugzzzz~~

lodger August 13 2003, 14:50:45 UTC

im not ranting cause i think im screwed up, only cause i've wanted to ramble off like this for a while.

digger_tag August 13 2003, 13:59:40 UTC

Sometimes i think i bear myself on my LJ. Then i go ahead and read something like this. It's humbling, but in a good way. Don't let all these shitty things happening to you as a discouragment. Sure, they suck and all, but whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Personally, i have to make sure that i'm never alone, because that would lead to me killing myself. But at the same time, there aren't more than thirty people in this world whose company i can stand, and would be forced to kill them if locked in a room with said extra people. Just make sure that you surround yourself with people that realize how you can help them, and who think they, too, can help you, without being cocky and self-righteous about it. Don't have a big group of kinda-friends. Have a small group of uber-friends. i've got Tom (remember anonymous Tom?), Graeme, and especially Katherine. Without her, my life wouldn't be right now. You've just got to realize that while there is a whole lot of shit out there, there are a lot of people, albeit, some more ( ... )

lodger August 13 2003, 14:59:26 UTC

comments on these two entries have been coming from the most unexpected people. and i think that's the best part about them. i dont like opening up to many people because it's.. it's strange. if i open the valve it pours out like a melted slurpee. so im rather reserved, but here we are. thanks for your reply. i'll have to keep an eye closer on you than first expected.

I have no idea if this makes sense but hey...I'm commenting! sammipunk August 13 2003, 17:09:38 UTC

When I started my journal, I strictly used it as therapy - pouring my heart out, bearing my soul. It was good.

I realized that I couldn't do that if people I knew in my day to day life were reading it. Because then I could never tell my journal how I really felt about so-and-so's comment or so-and-so's new hairstyle. Trivial, daily things that go through my head. Not to mention the big things - we won't even go there.

So yeah, plugging away at a screen to a total stranger is so much easier. Because not only do you not worry about what they'll think of you...ultimately - you don't care.

Of course, problems begin when you cease to not care. Been there, done that, the magnet's on my refridgerator.

Re: I have no idea if this makes sense but hey...I'm commenting! lodger August 13 2003, 17:26:09 UTC

i cant write about joe's schizo problem or jennifer's moustache. it's not my journal style. complaining though, and ranting, is. mind if i borrow your magnet for a whil?

its great to know that you;re human sassymama August 13 2003, 22:43:35 UTC

in my head, whenever i read your entries for the past year or so i see you, as perfect, without having any serious drama or issues and i admire you.

its so nice to finally see some sort of reaction to your situation, i know its what keeps you quiet and what steals you away in IM's. i do hope you get into something better soon..

best of luck

xoxo