Comments | lofidelityinred: my bodys an anomaly and my mind equally defiant

lofidelityinred

my bodys an anomaly and my mind equally defiant

Oct 23, 2003 12:46

i stare at myself
my pale skin that clings to my ribs
revealing the lump on the right side of my chest
the knuckles protruding from the center of my breast
am i anorexic skinny or bulemic skinnyneither of which i am. im skinny ( Read more... )

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mokeysvagina October 23 2003, 14:54:58 UTC

everything will be okay

crashthestatic October 23 2003, 17:10:15 UTC

when nov. 9th comes around, thats for sure

mokeysvagina October 23 2003, 17:21:15 UTC

crashthestatic October 23 2003, 21:37:48 UTC

at least im pretty sure its the ninth
in any case though, things will be *okay* on that day
fer the both of ya

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somethingbetter October 23 2003, 19:29:28 UTC

oh dear.
it makes me feel sick to be a part of this.
life... this...
oh.
and it isn't a 'woe to me'.
it's an... i am so afraid of being the way once again..
the way that pain doesn't even hurt anymore.
i can't even feel anymore.
but that hurt on the inside from where you used to feel, if only once,
felt so much.
there is just so much.
and taking however ungodly amount of pills each day,
and praying for a freak drive by gang incident or a car wreck.
hah. sometimes i don't even have the strength to hurt myself anymore.
oh. i don't know... anymore.. i just don't know anymore.
(i do, however, know that i say that altogether too much)
i'll be seeing you later?
- 'hey you know me, is it... iggy?' "igby. leave me alone"

p.s. jesus f.... fucking... CHRIST! (were you concious for that one?)what now? elliott smith! this requires some serious time to ponder the meaning of... continuing living.

lofidelityinred October 24 2003, 11:11:56 UTC

jesus f fucking christ. i was coherent enough to vaguely remember hearing it.

igby? thats funny. not funny in the har har kinda way, but funny in the way that youre wrong.
so wrong.
but i think well never reach a mutual agreement on this....

last night went from numb to good...in a matter of a few minutes, the time it took me to drink half a cup of coffee and smoke half of someone elses cigarette while i watched half of a gang war, and half assed/heartedly prayed that there would be guns drawn.
then i went in, sat down, and thought...wow..i think alison would have appreciated what just went on outside, but alas, no alison.