been listening to this song on loop. i fucking love it.

i wish i were high right now.

songs like this make me really appreciate music.

and pot.

pot and good music. you can't go wrong.

i feel like this journal is dead. i'm thinking of starting a new one.

pretty boring day. bummed around and watched stay which was visually stunning but vapid and confusing. the plot was just completely ridiculous. grandma came home today. she'll be staying with us until she fully recovers, but she seems like she's doing well. i'm supposed to go to the grocery store and fill gram's prescription, but mom keeps ( Read more... )

i can't sleep. today was a busy day. i've been tanning a lot lately, sitting out in the backyard. it feels good to be tan. i feel pretty. i've also been working out with mom. i also cut my hair again. i figure, if i'm back on the market, i might as well become attractive again (because god knows i was a frump for awhile). i've been making ( Read more... )

so karl took me off of his friends list on myspace. it hurt a little bit, i'll admit it, but i don't really care that much now. i finished my crying up yesterday afternoon, and today i'm feeling pretty good about things. i was talking to my mom about things, and i've decided that i'm going to consider going to beauty school. it's not going to ( Read more... )

so yeah. ignore that last entry.

i've thought it through.

time apart is good.

goodbye, stranger.

single. jobless. miserable. complaining. bitch. cunt. whore.

i hate you, and when i say you, i mean me.

i'm over it. all of it.

what a weird fucking day ( Read more... )

i've been having a lot of stress lately, about stupid shit. i've been having a roach problem in my bathroom lately. i accidentally poisoned a baby lizard with raid, cried hysterically, and then buried it at 1:30 AM last night (think the garden state incident with jelly the hamster), and in my underwear no less. that triggered an unnecessary ( Read more... )

and karl and i are still together. it's been over a year, for anyone who cares to know. we are better than ever, and i am probably destined to marry him -- and i love it. i'm still smoking cigarettes, among other things. i'm doing the fall semester at PBCC. i really like all of my classes, i.e. sociology, human sexuality, and political science ( Read more... )