My mother had a minor stroke in her brainstem over the weekend. She has been in the hospital since Saturday night. My father says she's recovering quickly. I'm relieved, but still very sad ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I go into slightly manic states when I don't want to sleep and I just want to stay up and do something, anything, and at this moment sleep just seems incredibly wasteful. I can't do anything, though, with no skills to speak of. So sometimes I cry, sometimes I stare into something until my eyes glaze over, sometimes I listen to music, ( Read more... )

I made a not-serious profile on shaadi.com just to see what brown guys outside of my family were like. You know, get a feel for the potential suitor pool my parents will be looking at ( Read more... )

Right now, I am in Cairo, Egypt. I have been here since June 16th. For the first three weeks, I cried nearly every day and I had never felt so alone and helpless. Then I thought about my mother, about how she had to leave her family and move to another country with no guarantee of seeing her family again any time soon, no friends, limited working ( Read more... )

Actually... I take that last part back.

I don't think I would ever really want to delete my memories. I don't want to lose my identity.

I still wish I wasn't so silly, though. Where is science on that, huh? Do we have a pill to rid people of their silliness?

Recently, I find myself falling into some old habits. Not particularly harmful or bad, but just... generally unhealthy, maybe. It's not normal. And I don't want to regress into this state that I thought I was finally out of. It's like relapse. I'm back in it again, but more seriously than before. So I read some old entries, and I think I regained ( Read more... )

I wish Clarissa Explains It All DVDs had been around during high school. I imagine they would have helped to keep me grounded. Clarissa Darling is the best role model a gal can have. I'm glad, though, that she was around during my childhood. I'm sure it rubbed off a little ( Read more... )

Last night, I experienced something I never thought would happen. I always hoped to at least experience one live performance of any song off Jimmy Eat World's Clarity, but I never really thought it would happen. I mean, it was released forever ago and bands just rarely ever do that ( Read more... )

My 3-week break from city life can be summed up as blissfully lazy and surprising. It's surprising how much I missed Florida, but that's just the winter talking. I do miss driving, though. I miss the way my old car's steering wheel fits my grip so perfectly. I miss the feel of rolling over pavement. Mostly I miss the utter solitude, truly being ( Read more... )

Tumblr is cool because I get to post all sorts of media without too much thought going into formatting, but LiveJournal... you will always be here for my rantings and ravings and ramblings and crazy late-night jitters ( Read more... )