Well... I think things are changing for the better, with a few exceptions. I gave up my internet (I still check my mail and so on) but I no longer thrive on internet games. I spend more time outside and doing the things I like.

I am getting my new business started up. And I may be getting a new car. Which means I will be able to go see you Brian :

Crimson stain, on porcelain skin ( Read more... )

Blood...lust....bloodlust... Aye, I have it again...as if it went away at one point. I drank from myself today, but, it seemed to do nothing... So, I am in search of food once again...grr...

I feel good today. It is a good day. It is a great day, a grand one. I have a job, and soon I will be free...free, what it is like to be free... What is freedom...it isn't cheap, and it is never free. but I will be free, one day...

This is one of my better days. My counselor has made me realize that my parents don't HATE me. But expect perhaps too much of me. In which case, I can somewhat deal with it. I don't know if I am going to make my boyfriends' Thanksgiving gettogether. I really want to go, but I don't know if my mom realizes how important it is to me, and I am unaware ( Read more... )

It has reached the point, where nothing I do is good enough... I attend school as much as I can, I am on the verge of getting another job. And that still isn't good enough for my vulture of a mother. Respect my parents, yes. Love my parents, very much so. However, it has gotten to the point where my mother is making this life unbearable. I cannot ( Read more... )

I feel sick, and tired yet, I cannot sleep. I am hungry, yet I barely eat... All I can hear are the sounds of people yelling, which eventually fade, and turn into people screaming, and it's not just some ordinary scream...it is a pained one, a haunting one. When I am at school, at home, trying to sleep. My eyes have reddish rings around them due to ( Read more... )

My eyes are dry, I cannot sleep, I feel like I am gonna puke. It's not just me, I am not sick, It's in my head, I think that I am gonna flip...

My mouth is dry, I'm at the brink, my mind feels like it's gonna sink... My eyes feel like, their gonna bleed, on the verges of my skull on my own here we go...

Yeah...something like that....

Up late once again, not by my doing this time. My sister had her boyfriend over. He lives in L.A. and the only way for him to get here was for his friend to drive him. Well he stayed really late, til like 4am because his friend got lost. SO I got no sleep... And my computer crapped on me today...I got it fixed but ****! So anyways, I am tired and ( Read more... )