So john is pissed at me. I just want to die... This is ridiculous. He is mad because I've been hanging out with my friends instead of him. Its hard when i get out at like 10 at night and he works in the morning. Says I dont call him to hang out which is bullshit. Says I drink to much when I dont. Its just so stupid. Hes going through stress this ( Read more... )

So Last night I went to a party with john at his friend amanda's place. We drank a lot and played some Ruit. Then we get a call telling us to go to cocamos. Its a small topless club. I was like HECK YEAH I WANNA GO!!! (I never been to one and always wanted to go) So we go there and there were some cute girls dancing and having some fun. I buy a few ( Read more... )

He does something to me that no one has ever done. I cant go a day without your attention. I drive myself crazy just thinking about you. I love it when you kiss my neck and tell me Im beautiful. The way you make me wait and how much it kills me. I love how you can make me so happy even though my day is horrible. The way you just hold me makes my ( Read more... )

Sorry I havent updated in a while. Been stuck in a rut with money and job situation. They cut my hours real bad and I cant afford shit. Im -500 in the hole. Im waiting to hear from The poker dealer job. Im actually thinking about selling ym horse and with that money getting the fuck outta new hampshire and moving south. Im so done with New Engalnd ( Read more... )

Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love

So Yeah We both are crazy for eachother. I slept over his house last saturday and we couldnt keep our hands and things to ourself. IM SO FUCKING HAPPY!!! :D :D :D I love him and I would totally date him in a heart beat. But I Dont want to rush. I like what we have now. I gotta ask him and see what he thinks about all this. I mean he kisses me and ( Read more... )

My heart is so confused right now.. I am in love with john but I think Im just a booty call for now... I dont want to get into another relationship yet I want to be with him. Im not sure if he feels the same way.. I should ask him what I really mean to him.

FUck Love. The word turns my stomach.

SO fucking happy right now. I'm single, John and I have a little thing going on in secret. I got a nice car, My friends are starting to hang out with me again and I made a butt load of more friends. I haven't been home in nearly a week. I party like there is no tomorrow ( Read more... )