but these peaks and valleys are beginning to take their tole ~ Assemblage 28 " Cocoon"

Rage.
         Fatigue.
Hyper.
         Happy.
Rage.
         Painic
No Sleep.
         Hyper.
Rage.
         Waking.
Just let it...

STOP

I haven't been sleeping well, and go through these bouts of being fine. Then being exhausted and then going going going again. I hate ( Read more... )

Gravity

I am trying desperately not to give in, I took my Lithium and then quickly proceeded to undo all the good I've done for myself today and stuffed my face. Now I sit here, bordering mania as I have for hours now using all my will power to not run to the bathroom and shove my fingers down my throat.
My gut is bubbling, because of the Alli ( Read more... )

Jenny:  I'm sitting in the chair, writhing in agony. A demon, a minor demon, is pinning me there, fucking with my head. 'Abraxas', he says, 'I'm
Abraxas, the demon of lies and deceit'.AbraxasSo, what do you want to know about lies, my dear?Jenny: I'm not a liar, I try again to get up. This time I'm flayed, splayed. I feel myself screaming.
Abraxas: ( Read more... )

If I were to discribe my family in any way it would be color.

My mother is red,  of the blazing flame kind warm and comforting on one hand but on the other burning and distructive. Chaotic as she is beautiful and wilfull don't get too close or you'l get hurt. It's nothing presonal, it is just the nature of the beast. Safty and warmth sometimes to ( Read more... )