Superstitions arent meant for lovers ( Read more... )

I was happy, fine, sure I was unsafe, but I was happy. You changed mny world and jjst left me to fend for myself. Jason.... You did fuck up my life ( Read more... )

These songs have more meaning now then before ( Read more... )

Once again sitting at work crying. I hate this feeling. I feel like life once again has shit on me and passed me by. WHy do I bother trying to pull myself together when every fucking time i get kicked back down.....So Jason's girl is pregnant....... Yeah. I am more upset then words can describe. Not many know the real reason. Yes partically its ( Read more... )

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So last night while I was at the hospital visiting my sister Nicole and my beautiful Nephew Noah, so much hit me. We were two rooms down from the room I had Katelyn in. I started thinking a lot and watching Nicole and Nate with their newborn, holding Kennedy my two month old Neice, and watching Katelyn run around, about everything the past three ( Read more... )

As the world spins around me I only think of you and notice nothing else. I can't forget your smile, your laugh, you arms that kept me safe and warm. I reach for you in my dreams and cry for you in my bed. Am I alone or are you there watching over me? Are you happy with me or do you blame me as I do? Will this pain ever fully be healed? Am I to ( Read more... )

Recent events have made me think a lot about myself and who I actually am. Many people have their ideas on who I am, such as my mother who is convinced I am satan and nothing but a liar and a failure. Then there are those who think I am the strong one, the one who never breaks or falls. Other think of me as a crazy wild party girl who might as well ( Read more... )

Been a bit of a mess lately, Jess getting engaged is turning out to be almost to hard to handel. I miss him........ Anyhow Katelyn has her big girl bed sooooooo cute. I am thinking of putting her into dance classes, she is just amazing. It's like I have watched her grow and I know this is only the beginning but it's amazing it makes me cry to see ( Read more... )

I am so numb lately. Well aside from loosing the one man that I felt ever actually loved me for me and everything about me, I had to get a new transmission in my car. Life is sucky right now but things have to get better... They cant get any worse I suppose. Not sure if anyone actually reads this anymore but I need to vent. I am sick of living ( Read more... )