you only know how far you have come when you get back to where you were before and it doesnt look so much fun anymore.

when i told you that last night, i had already made the call, i could have had it in an hour. laughing, drinking, carrying on. it always felt like someone had put a jet pack on my back and i just left it all behind, i was looking down on everything, florida and everywhere ive been. i could go like that for days at a time. i wouldent sleep at all ( Read more... )

i can make anyone in my life feel better except myself. i live my life for other people, its a sad situation. my mind is blank right now, yet still full of such bullshit.

it was only because you were there, i wasnt really. i swear to myself this. i wish i could keep my face out of this. my mind is racing, i wish i could sleep.Sleeping under plastic stars glued to your ceiling, Muscles burning alcohol and nicotine. i feel clean now my mind is somewhat straight. everything is in the past now, everything. after that ( Read more... )

I know I'm young but if I had to choose her or the sun
I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun

i am probably the worst person you will ever meet. i have addictions, i have problems.

you were never really there for me. you played the part. now look at yourself. how can you treat a person like this? how can this go on for so long. just say the word, im gone, im out of your life forever i know thats what you really want here it is so obvious. im so tired of chasing you. i hope he makes you happy, in your short time home i ( Read more... )

i want to have a feeling of we. us.

im really worried about what will come of this upcoming week.

it was all a lie i know it was. please agree with me. it couldent have meant that much? did it? i think it did. i feel like we were always faking, it was always a fake. we were comfortable. i wish i didnt think about this all the time. im going feral, i need to get away from this.