February was what I like to call my month long interregnum. I got absolutely out of my head for most of the month on booze. I had sex with J a few more times and even had my first serious experience with a female friend of mine - all in one weekend! I suppose I have been waiting for some kind of resolution before posting again as all of the drama ( Read more... )

Last Monday J and I had sex and I started drinking again all in one big fell corrective swoop. I had met J for drinks and eventually went back to his with a bottle of red. Expecting nothing to happen (this was something we had done many times in the past), I also indulged in some other relaxing substances as well. We talked about everything from ( Read more... )

Oh and I so wish it were a good way but alas the stupid drama that is my personal life continues. Last night I planned to go to a lesbian bar with a mate who has been asking about it, N. She is cool, but not my type. She's J's best friend's girlfriend. Anyway, I got dressed up to the nines, my best gear, and my suit jacket, covered myself in my ( Read more... )

I haven't written on here for a while and wanted to provide and update of sorts on the situation. I moved back to my neighbourhood on the 3rd of Jan, in with some nice flatmates who are both teachers - there seems to be an issue with loo roll restocking but never mind! Overall it is pleasant. I have my little basement room which has fast become a ( Read more... )

It's so bloody cold here in England right now. I wish it were slightly warmer as it makes you miss having a body to cuddle up next to all the more. I had my first serious talk with G since the split last night. We have been communicating off and on and even seen each other at an event in Stokey. I called him last night after getting back from J's ( Read more... )

It's been a little over a week since I moved out of G's place and into the suburbs surrounding London. I find it so odd out here - like a cousin one-step removed, these little places are familiar, yet so strange. The buildings remind me alternately of Chicago and then another side street of an old English village. People stare and look at you ( Read more... )

I am sitting here in the conservatory at K's place. Her kids are home and watching telly in the living room. I have noticed that the sun has arced around the sky sideways, such is our position in the hemisphere. Last night and today have proved awkward. I have feelings of sadness but no overwhelming depression like I did before I left. In addition ( Read more... )

I leave tomorrow around 2pm and am meeting K at London Bridge station to get the train to her place. The last week here with G has not been easy and we've tried to be civil. Last night he came home a bit drunk and was in a really cantankerous mood. He kept raising his voice and even shouted on occasion. We were talking about what his friends at the ( Read more... )

I am set on going now despite that part of me that wants to stay. I have been pretty down and had to tell G that I just didn't want to talk about it anymore. I have had no luck on the job front yet but am refusing to get disheartened about that as I have planned for some cash from elsewhere which will help me for the time being. G gave me a book ( Read more... )

I have been studying most of this morning and feel better for it after a few days of pain, drama and serious depression. Every night I have a conversation with G about our relationship. The plan is that I am now going to house sit for K while she is gone to America for Christmas. I am going to leave here on the 8th of December and stay there ( Read more... )