Hi there.

It's been so long.

Where to begin.  Let's start with my failures.  My soul is dying.  Among other things.  My dog is dead.  We got a new one.  I moved back in with my parents.  Soon I will leave the nest.  I have been working.  I have learned gentleness from  cruelty.  I have learned that no good deed goes unpunished.  I have learned that ( Read more... )

The sickness spread quickly and was not noticed as a real threat until it had spread globally.
Nah nevermind... Anyhooo I will be in Winnipeg on the 21st of December, I bet you five bucks your not reading this... no wait, twelve bucks. Sucker.
P.S. Tittys and whipped cream. Yeah I went there.

You got Served!
EI was originally set in place to help people with funding while unemployed.  Getting the money from them doesn’t sound hard.  Type in codes, give reports, and fill out forms, busy work.  Yet getting paid seems like a never ending maze that requires time and patience.  Especially when you do everything right and it still tells you “ ( Read more... )

Hello people.   First I would like to apologize for my abusive use of my livejournal account.  Secondly I'd like to alert everyone that I will be In Winnipeg on Sunday 20th, 1986... No... 2007.  Yeah, and It will be fun.  I'll be need a chauffer.  So, if you like free food, shopping, driving, and hates paying for gas...  Youse might be interested ( Read more... )

Happy.  I was happy.  Two days ago.  Or three.  I slept for 20 hours.
Our fridge started leaking gases.  Our pistol Died,  We masking taped it.
Its one giant rut.  Noone can escape.  Noone likes it here.  Except the crazy.
Crazy, for feeling so lonely.  My cold is a sentiant life form.
It has a symbiotic relationship with my throat.  Like a marriage.
A ( Read more... )

Sally, why you doing me so bad?  I wanna tear myself down ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder how long?  How long can I kill myself.
How long can I drown my sorrows before i drown myself.
...can I turn the other cheek, until I turn right around.
...can I put myself before my love.  before I no longer love myself.
...until I stop pouring into music, and start pouring out of here.
...will I waste my time, before I waste away.
... ( Read more... )

march 6
2 hour over flows

march 7
1 hour bailing water...
2 hour over flows...
1 hour cleaning shit

I feel alone and hated by everyone
I give myself too much credit like anyone would notice me
My apologies I am a little drunk.
No, you  know what no apologies, i"m sick of feeling bad
fuck everything, I should start living for me
I always wanna take care of ( Read more... )

Hello Peoples!!!
Are you ready to Rock
I can't hee...eear you?
This is a TEST                      What is the square root of a million?

Update Update.
I need a change.  maybe not a change in scenery.  but a change in my perception of scenery.
change must be a slow process or it'll all change back.  my reality is my perception of it.
I shall master My ( Read more... )

Today I stay inside
sanctuary of solitude
Never belonged because of skin deep difference
never returned because I'm better than the rest
They call me a spoiled brat behind my back
when they do not care, how their children act
Yesterday I went to work
Future past and life
People take hour long coffee breaks
then insult me behind my back
I don't even comment ( Read more... )