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[loneduckman]

These past few days have probably been some of the darkest of my life. I just feel shitty about everything. I don't know. I've probably felt this way before, but that doesn't matter.

I guess no one reads this anymore, but that's okay. I don't really have anyone to talk to and this is better than nothing. 

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[prettyfrocks]

I still read, I just assume nothing I say will help. If you want to come hang out and talk you know where I live.

[loneduckman]

Yeah, I kind of assume the same thing. As much as I would like someone to say something that would help, this is really something I need to be able to get myself through. I really do appreciate the offer to talk though. But, as you know, talking is really hard and pretty scary.

[prettyfrocks]

only when you're actually trying to communicate.
But the offer's an open one. Anytime.

[teh__muffin]

My friend, I am also available for talking/companionable silences/beer/video games. If that's what you need. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so shitty right now. When did you start feeling this way?

I assure you, I'm still reading. And for what it's worth, I will continue to read as long as you keep posting.

[loneduckman]

Hey, thanks dude. Uh, it's hard to say when I started feeling this way. It's so closely tied in with all my thoughts that it's hard to identify this type of mood as a separate thing. But I think it's fair to say the horrible self doubt and despair began pretty much around the time I got back to kanata, and then a couple of events made them much worse, but things are getting better again. I think part of the problem is that my emotional state is very precarious since I'm pretty much in alone in uncharted waters (well not totally alone, but pretty close. I'm very thankful for those people supporting me though). I donno.

[teh__muffin]

I wonder if the feeling will lessen when you go back to Montreal? I guess it depends on how you feel about K-town in general.

"Uncharted waters?"