People are probably sick of my whinging, but i have no where else to whinge and no one to whinge to. The doctors are messing me around...after waitin at the medical centre for half an hour last week and then the midwife not turning up i was told she would ring me but she hasnt...so i ring them today and am told "well she is here later, i'll ask her ( Read more... )

Well my boyfriend has gone home now and i'm on my own, i am starting to get a bump from the baby, none of my clothes fit and i start work tomorrow. Life is stressful to the say the least. But i'm coping and i will have to continue to cope cos there is no other choice....

Am i making the right decision? What do you do when there isnt a right answer, just lots of wrong ones all equally wrong?
My boyfriend (i suppose he is my ex now) is leaving tomorrow and while i no it is the right decision for me it isnt the right decision for everyone else and there r alot of people to consider. My boyfriend is unhappy and feels he ( Read more... )

OK so since i last posted a LOOOONNNNGGGGG time ago things have completely messed up. Lets start at the beggining....

1st i left college. No idea why, i just did. One day i woke up and thought, "No! i'm not going to college anymore"....this left me with the problem of what to do now. However this was ok, so things changed dramatically but i managed ( Read more... )

Well its been a long time since i posted here, so much for updating every day eh?! Anyway quite a bit is going on at the moment:

1) i started college. I'm doing a Btech national diploma in Early years. Its a 2 year course and so much work! We have to do 800 hours in placement and a huge portfolio of activities, observations and essays. I am really ( Read more... )

Today has been a good but tiring day. I spent my day volunteering on a play scheme for children with severe learning disabilities. It was hard work: those kids can run fast!... I've done it 3 years now and i enjoy it more every time. It's amazing how different these children are from everyone else you encounter in this world. They r so innocent ( Read more... )

Well i have been a way for a while so not posted at all. I have been so busy.

My family have all been away for the last week and my boyfriend came to stay. It was kinda weird cos we had the house to ourselves for so long. It was so quiet.... big house - (little brother + screaming teenage sister) = Very quiet house. It was nice though. It was like ( Read more... )

This is just a quick update while i have five minutes. I have been so busy lately that i just havent found time but right now everything is stopped so i thought i would post ( Read more... )

I'm feeling alot more positive today and realised that instead of whinging about my life i should either except how it is or improve it so thats what i am doing....improving. I've worked out what needs to be improved so now its just a case of doing it. It aint gonna be easy cos it will take alot of will power and blind hope but it can, and will be ( Read more... )

I am fed up of this life. Its always the same old same old until it drives you mad. It sucks at your soul, draining you of all feeling and emotion. I have no energy left. I dont want to wake up anymore. I want to sleep and sleep and sleep and just let life run along around me. I dont want to think. I dont want to move. I dont want to breath. I just ( Read more... )