*sigh* i feel like an ass....well really i dont know what i feel. I have been so confused about everything for the past like week. I mean i think i feel one way but that's the side of me that just wants to please everyone and then i think to myself no you have stick to your true feelings and everything and then i realize that i feel an entirely ( Read more... )

i'm so confused about something lately. I'm sure it's because of the things that have been going on lately with like getting over someone, for the most part, and stuff but it's just been on my mind so much and i dont really know what to think and it has been making me just about cry myself to sleep because i feel so confused and i try to sit there ( Read more... )

And tag 5 people to do the same ( Read more... )

So yeah, drumline last night, <3333. Idk what it is but i guess i just like the atmosphere better, i kinda feel like i can be myself more than at a J-E rehersal. The only thing i didnt like about last night was that i feel like i got off on the wrong foot in general. Mainly with the whole learning rotation a thing because i already knew it and when ( Read more... )

So today i sat my mother down and had a little bit of a serious talk with her. See, her excuses for always telling me "no" for OCC WDL is that one, the mustang is a piece of shit (which is true) and that she feels i would be over doing myself with two drumlines putting in 12 hours of playing on saturdays along with 3 on wednesdays and 3-4 hours on ( Read more... )

I can promise everyone now that this entry is happening only because of the fact that i have been so sick for the past 4 or so days and have been amazingly bored. I also have been feeling kind of overwhelmed with some things so maybe getting them out in here will be beneficial. I can only hope. Anyway, so i'm back t square one again when it comes ( Read more... )

HAVE YOU EVER ( Read more... )

Okay so yeah i dont even remember the last time i updated......and i'm wayyy too lazy to look. Well i went through band camp and that was a riot the picnic was amazing too. Gen and Sobo have left us for good. I couldn't believe it but it's okay. We're coping. I love my family. I have a new found love for my cousin Laura....i hung out with her all ( Read more... )

I dont have any time to update AT ALL haha....but this week is band camp and i'm loving it soooo much and i will tell all about it some other time when i have time hehe.
`~Paula~`

i just had the weirdest experience with colin...it will not be written in here so if you care enough to know....ask me haha.