3 years since my last post. A lot has happened in that time. I find myself lost more now then ever. Jobless, frustrated, alone.

I don’t understand what compels me to return to this journal. Perhaps it’s when I feel most alone. Or maybe it’s my way of letting a little pressure out simply to breathe a little easier. Wake up one more day. Keep going.

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I never know how to start these journal entries off... I think its because I feel as though I want someone to read and comment and talk to me, but it never happens ( Read more... )

I have become a Dad. Yep, Me!! I never thought that I would be writing this post. Yet, I am so excited to say that I am a Dad. Its the best feeling in the world. I have never known happiness that my Little Bella has brought me. Its only been a week and 4 days. Her name is Bellalina Rae. She was born at 8:05pm on May 1st. She weighed 6lb 12.3oz and ( Read more... )

I find myself in a familiar place. One I know all too well. A place I usually only flirt with. Then when the gravity of what's going on starts to set in, I turn running for the first pair of arms thats open and willing to take me in my weakened state. Of course I attempt to hide this underlying pain that tugs at my heart constantly. Truth is, I ( Read more... )

I am healing.

I have to make this short, so I'll get right to it ( Read more... )

I have started over, again. I have my Job, Truck and a Roof over my head ( Read more... )

Forced to leave my home. Literally.
You would think going to a house where your family lives would be welcoming.
It is not. It is a roof. Four walls.
Tension so hot in the air its pointless trying to breathe.
I hate it here. Absolutely despise every minute in this house. Their house.I long to go home. I fight through each day ( Read more... )

So this was a great beginning of a New Year. I did it apart from the person I plan on spending the rest of my life with. It sucks because I didn't even get Christmas with her ( Read more... )

I added the not so new Hotspot (Tethering) feature to my mobile plan...
So worth it!!! I can go anywhere and have WIFI with my kindle or laptop! I know right!!!

I am unhappy. I am working to fix that. I am strong. And I need remember then when I think otherwise.