I cant exactly say what I'm feeling right now. I clearly am confused and lack something, its just a matter of figuring out if my pain is worth it to fix or if it is even feasible ( Read more... )

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Sometimes I feel like I have no control over anything in my life. I just want to cry sometimes when I think of how many things I have fucked up over the years. Its the story of my fucking life...I find someone I love...then I find someone else at the same time...I choose who I think is right...and it ends up biting me in the ass...I cant help but ( Read more... )

I suppose its about time I come to realize exactly what I wont from life. I suppose only because its too late to fix the past but its never to late to fix the future. I'm not exactly sure what has happened to me this week because its all alittle fuzzy still and probably will be forever. I cannot imgine how this all happened nor do I remember where ( Read more... )

What do I get for giving up my heart and soul??? Nothing but broken heart and a fucked up head. I thought I was over it. I thought everything was wipped from my memory and my heart was finally mending but I was wrong. I was stupid for thinking that my heart would last being stuck back together with chewing gum instead of super glue. I was dumb for ( Read more... )

Moving in last night proved to be a miserable experience like always but all is good now. Stupid milldew...stupid James...stupid Central...I think I'll leave it at that so I dont bore you all with all those details...ick ( Read more... )

Moving in last night proved to be a miserable experience like always but all is good now. Stupid milldew...stupid James...stupid Central..

I'm not exactly sure why the hell I write in this thing seeing as the people I want to read this wont and people I dont want to read it probably wont read it either so I ask myself...WHATS THE POINT???? I suppose the point is to relieve my mind from some of its build up...like thats even possible ( Read more... )

Have you ever wondered why no matter what you are argueing about...someone always brings back past things and/or runs their mouths and says things that shouldn't be said. Well I suppose I should have pondered all of this long ago ( Read more... )

I've lost so much in order to gain very little through out my entire life. I can easily sit here and say that way things turned out doesn't bother me, but if I did I would be lying. Its true, I've put up the fascade of not caring but spend too much time crying and being upset about everything. In some aspects of my life, I couldn't ask for much ( Read more... )