Hey all I dont know how many people actually use this anymore.. but for those of you who do and care about whats going on here is an update...well I am back in school now and I have a BF and I love him to bits and peices but you know like with all good things that there are thing that are just going to make you go nuts like the fact that he thought ( Read more... )

Cant remember the last time that I wrote in this was but anyways not that anyone actually reads this but tomorrow is my bday so I am going to boston.. I think that its going to be fun but who knows.... in the months that I have not written there has been a lot that has and has not happened....nothing overly exciting but in my life where nothing ( Read more... )

well this has gone ( Read more... )

Oh my fucking god I never thought that I would be able to get the hell out of BK for a week but here I am I did it and I think that I am going to be a happier person for it. This week is going to be the best ever I think.. well anyways.... Iam is in rehab for drugs and alchohl I can onoly hope that he does well.... with ever one gone I know that ( Read more... )

If I knew then what i know now I would have never made the choices that I have made thus far. If I could go back in time and change it then I know that I would with a choice that was not even my idea.. The fact is that I have ruined the best friendship that I think I have ever had over a stupid choice. Man am I a jackass. Oh for whoever reads ( Read more... )

well I knew that it would come... I had my little mental break down... I really and truely lost it.. I feel bad for Josh in who I called on for help.. he is amazing..I was crying and he made me laugh..I worked with him today and I said that I was sorry for calling him (even tho I wasnt) it was not nice of me to mess up his evening.... he was like " ( Read more... )

This week has been very trying for me.. I have lost my self and trying to see my way home is being for chanallaging for me then I thought that it would be.  The people places and things that I thought I once knew have changed.  The people that I thought cared for me dont and the people that I knew did have changed too much for me to be able to ( Read more... )

In the last 3 days I have worked my ass off and I am trying to get finals done. I am sooo tired. Christmas is coming up and thats kinda shitty too I miss my nana and I know that I always will but sometimes I just wish that I could see her just to know that she is happy with me and all that I have done.  I still like josh p alot but I have not ( Read more... )

I know that I have somethings that I have made somet poeple upset and I am sorry I cant help how I feel or the way it came out.. but if there is one things that I have gotten off this is that you should just be honest with people and let poeple know how you feel.. so what that said I am sorry.. can you forgive me???

ok... well now wtih that said ( Read more... )

Yep thats right I must be pretty damn dumb to think that people who have been my friend for such a long time would even care about me or ne that I have done for them.. its funny that I jsut about kill myslef for someone thinking (stupidly)that I mattered in any way for them... I can see now that I am nothing to certin people and thanks to them I am ( Read more... )