Haven't written in awhile a lot's happened. Generally I always come back to this when a relationship falls out of all hope and I am left in a state of severe depression, usually with a bottle of cheap whiskey ( Read more... )

Caniving cunt. Is he any worse than me really? I really truly doubt he is. I'm an ugly, ugly jew. A degenerate. One of the most consumnate liars you'll ever meet. A polygamist. But worst of all a fraud. This boy is gorgeous, he's everything I am. The boy is more manipulative than myself, to an effect. He is one of the most excellent liars I ( Read more... )

I always used to make him laugh. Even when we would be arguing and nearly at each others throats in the heat of an argument I would get so ridiculously overwhelmed, and this rage would coat my face and he would look at me and start laughing. Not a demeaning laugh, a genuine hearty laugh ( Read more... )

Well, that previous entry was interesting and the guy involved flimflammed and reversed. I just got back from his place, I had the, well one of the most amazing nights of my life seeing an old flame. It was brilliant. Ye gods, what destiny was fulfilled tonight. A Seven and Seven please, bartender. Make it two ( Read more... )

I feel stupid even writing about this because I don't believe he held our relationship in enough esteem to even constitute an ex. Or maybe it just hurts thinking about, let alone writing about it. I think I might need some bourbon, but I'll abstain ( Read more... )

Love is war. "I wont buddy, that's one line I would never cross, you're my best friend ( Read more... )

Jesus dirty christ in a syphillis clinic ( Read more... )

So I've recently discovered what it is i'm seeking. A relationship to be sure but of what sort. Merely someone who will be there for me under every consequence. I need to have a man. And so much so that I am involved with numerous person,... [ this is drunk talk disregard it] though even that I am drunk I am so civil is amazing. Perhaps I am ( Read more... )

And so.......... I don't completely recall what all happ'd tonight mostly because i'm inebriated but as far as I can remember. I got together with a guy who wasnt down with having sex (which I can appreciate) instead he was down with the foreplay. Everything which PRECEEDES sex but doesnt encompass it. So. I'm at a loss I know by this point ( Read more... )

It's 5:00AM Mountain time and I'm drunk.

Just got home from a friends house who lives roughly an hr away (including the walking distance to my car).

Got drunk and embarassed and didn't call HIM I feel out of things... I hung out with brown people this weekend, and I loved it. I think there may be something about spending time with one owns ( Read more... )