I just want to scream!!!! The last few weeks have been so good yet so bad at the same time. So great with God... yet so bad with my friends! You know, so many people have told me that they are not my friends, if they treat me like this... but God is telling me otherwise. Honestly they were all the joy I had here. All my actual joy is back home, and ( Read more... )

So I really don't know what to say ( Read more... )

Ugh! reminiscing on the way things used to be ( Read more... )

So yea, definitely wish I can have like a night away from home before school starts. So much is going on...and my hope and prayer is that it wont affect me at school. I want this year to be different, not the same, no drama. I really want to go back to the FCCNC Youhth Group. No one really knows how much I miss those days! I really do! I look over ( Read more... )

Wow, I never know summer could be such a great time. Though I really have't gotten out much this summer, I have realized so many things. :) I have spent so much more time with God...and that has been the highlight of my summer really... that and the Philippines. I had such a great time there. I traveled to places that are so amazing, and had alone ( Read more... )

i think it was a mistake what i did ( Read more... )

LIfe had been so great... despite all the drama. I really miss church. :( I feel like in my heaart God has me somewhere else, but my mom is stopping me. I dont know what to do. But yea. I guess i was going to Japan, but im not now. I still really want to go, but I feel like its too late ( Read more... )

yeah... well, im guessing now that some people or another are gonna end up gettin mad at me for posting this... but im sorry that this is the way i feel. seriously, i just feel like a frikken big failure. i mean, nothing i want to do will ever happen, cause it always gets screwd up ( Read more... )

i dunno what to do. i mean, i realized this fathers day was kinda sad. i wish i would have been able to tell my father Happy Fathers day ya know? i mean, i wish he was here for a change... but my one friend said its his loss. sometimes i think that... but others i dont, i think maybe it was my falut... but no its not.yeah ( Read more... )

went to church ( Read more... )