It's been a while since I posted a journal up here, but that was mostly due to me being lazy. The phrase "I will do it this weekend", kept popping in my head. As for really posting up here, I mean really it is pointless... as I don't expect to many people to read this and not that care then either.....; but I guess I do it to say that I am here ( Read more... )

Why do people assume to know everything about me? Do they honestly think they know what goes on in my mind? Must they continue to act like my friend, while I stare at them planning their demise. God I hate people. If they would only die and not bother me no more. I care for little people in this world, why must they think that I honestly trust ( Read more... )

As of late, I have two minor goals that I wish to attain. Well, three if you count learning the Korean language. Anyway, I plan to find and attain the books "The Water Margin" and "Romance of the Three Kingdoms", both of which were written in late China. My reason as to why, "The Water Margin" was the basis for the game Genso Suikoden and the ( Read more... )

"It is better to have loved and to have lost, then to have never loved at all ( Read more... )

As it stands I have noticed more and more that my body is changing and obviously not to the best. As it stands I am bleeding in certain areas that I probably shouldn't be. Logical conclusion, all the years of torturing my body is catching up. Perhaps, it was wise to strengthen ones body, but now that I live continually, day after day; doing the ( Read more... )

As of late, I have been doing lots of role playing on message boards. I have been having lots of fun with this since, it seems that this is the only place where things can come true. Basically it allows me to show a part of myself, without having to worry that about someone stabbing it. I can show love through characters and not have to ever ( Read more... )

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The sky looks so peaceful now. Colors blend with the clouds making them look so vivid. If I had the money and power, I would love to live in the sky and watch these wonderful clouds from their height. I wish I could fly and soar through the air. Spend the rest of my days chasing the sun. I love dusk, the sun disappears from sight and slowly ( Read more... )

Didn't go to Maryland this weekend. I would blame my parents, but if I had really wanted to go, I would have head there myself. In some ways, I don't know if I can go back there. Memories; good and bad had taken place there. Do I really wish to stir it up again, some things are best left settled at the bottom and never re-awoken. Though I do ( Read more... )

Be true to yourself..... but, how do you be true to yourself if you don't even know who you are. Again I come to this. Self doubt. Lost. Confused. This is what I feel ( Read more... )