i am scared i made a mistake. that i will never find anyone better then him. but that is ridiculous. right?

i told him today that i am still not sure ( Read more... )

jacob just asked if he should ask his old boss to try and find him a job up here.
what? i am getting totally mixed signals from him.

and from myself.

i love dan savage ( Read more... )

huh, well maybe i liked this song for a reason... in pertinent part ( Read more... )

we got into another fight tonight ( Read more... )

so apparently we are trying to work on it ( Read more... )

if i miss him simply because he didnt call and say good night (well maybe not simply because of that) it will be really really hard if we break up. i do love him, parts of him, who he used to be, what we have/used to have. this relationship has been amazing in so many ways, and it breaks my heart that we've lost it.

so, last night, all i asked of him was to show me that he cared (after a argument about how he already does and this is further example of my irrationality ( Read more... )

its amazing how quick i go from dejection to anger to apathy to i dont know what.