what you want is right in front of you, but for some reason you dont want it because it is right in front of you. you describe it when you describe what you are looking for, and then you wonder how to find it, and still it is right in front of you. but it remains unwanted and quiet despite the ironic and painful twist on reality. it begs the ( Read more... )

some words are troubling me lately...personality and person specifically. personality is obviously a set of traits that makes a person unique. but how do those traits form, how is it that they are consistently expressed? what part of me is my personality in? i think i think (thats intentionally double) that its in the soul. im working on a proof to ( Read more... )

"Grace in all her steps, heaven in her eye, in every gesture dignity and love. I overjoyed could not forbear aloud: '"This turn hath made amends; thou hast fulfilled thy words, Creator bounteous and benign, giver of all things fair, but fairest this of all thy gifts"'" from Milton's Paradise Lost.

i was set straight on the path again. i had begun to stray but quickly was jolted back to reality. i must not give in to the dream...it is so sweet and so tempting but it is only a dream and i cant sleep forever. it comes every night though...i must say though that i am a fan of reality. even if it sucks i would rather have truth than lie always. i ( Read more... )

i stayed up all night...couldnt sleep and it was starting to get light outside so i took a caffeine pill and went out for a drive. i parked at the top of the parking deck facing east and just sat there for almost 2 hours with no music or anything. i thought about a lot of stuff...it was quite peaceful. i thought about things that made me happy and ( Read more... )

im emotionally stressed tonight. i cant sleep. ive been thinking about the things that scare you, that bother you, that make you feel awkward around me. the things i try to hide. i started talking with trag whose situation with annaka is somewhat similar. its strange that somebody can be your whole world when you are such a small part of theirs in ( Read more... )

you lie to me when you get drunk. i get more honest when im drunk, you get less honest. its not what you say, its what you do because actions speak louder than words. the things you do tell me one thing but i know you dont mean it that way. still i let you lie to me because it lets me tell you the truth through my actions. like i said...im an ( Read more... )

if i could be here with you...well that would be more than amazing. it would be a dream come true. but all i can do on my own is be here for you. funny how changing the prepostion can change so much of the meaning. i do what i can...so thats what ill keep doing. isnt it nice to know youve got somebody here willing to die for you and do anything and ( Read more... )

Ok so i had a thought, and it led to a sort of religious theory. im not purporting that this is fact at all. its just something that logically makes sense and so could be true, it could equally be untrue as well though. so here it goes. before the devil lived in hell he was in heaven and was pretty close to God. but he led a rebellion against God ( Read more... )

Usually this problem is addressed from the side of success...i.e. whether it is better to form a relationship with a current friend or find somebody new. Some believe that a successful relationship comes best when best friends get together. Others believe it is always wrong to date friends. I dont take sides with either one, i believe both starts ( Read more... )