The day begins with a Vicoden and a bagel. A coke to wash it all down. A cigarette after the second class, it's starting to warm up yet something still makes me shiver. More coke. Some skittles. Adderal after the third class. I can feel a little more alive. another cigarette after the fourth class, awake and calm but not calm, in this state the ( Read more... )

Old habits die hard.
The old memories always are always the warmest and also the darkest ones I have.
In this induced insomnia I cannot help but to think.
For some reasons my thoughts are always of the past.
Phone open, number dialed, and then! The slightest hesitation.
The feeling passes.
I'm still the same.

I just want everything to stop.

please, eveyone, just quit.

i can't take this.

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