been forever...idk guess we're gonna have to start all over again.

I'm annoyed. I'm always sick now. My stomach, my head, I'm ready to puke and massive acid reflex, and I'm always tired. I never wanna do anything anymore. My sex drive is shitty, I'm eating too much. Because of all this I skip class. I hate being this way and I know its bothering him too ( Read more... )

Lately, I dunno, I feel like a giddy school girl. It's weird. I keep having these dreams that just feel like I'm closer than I have ever been to my boyfriend. Yet, when I'm with him it isnt like that. My dreams are taking control of me. I want so badly to have him realize these feelings but everytime I try to sit down and talk to him he makes it ( Read more... )

I hate more than anything having dreams that tare at you. You wake up so upset and worried that you don't want anything but the love of your life holding you to prove you are no longer in that dream or rather nightmare. I have random dreams where something I love is taken away. One night was Zoe and even tho she really is gone it felt weird to be ( Read more... )

ooommmggg vaaacaation!!!!!! monday=maine! wooooo... partyyyy

so i cant do all this. i cant work over 25hrs, go to school full time in the middle of the day, go home for an hour or less and take care of my dog and do homework and go to work til 9 then go home and do homework and get to bed by 12. no its not gonna happen. im gonna get to the breaking point where its either gonna be school work myself or me and ( Read more... )

i cant stand ppl that dont go thru shit that youre going thru and they yell at you. its gay. grow up. someone can be seriously fucked and you wouldnt care cuz youre not going thru it so it cant really happen. im not telling anyone whats up for my own personal self esteem. to me i feel if i hide it itll go away. ill give it a little longer its a ( Read more... )

So Valentine's Day is tuesday and Roberto is taking me to Cheesecake Factory. YAY I'm sooo excited ( Read more... )

I'm tired of fighting with him. ITS GAY. He says he loves me and wants to be with me but in my eyes he doesn't. It's difficult for me cuz like I have no one to really hang with anymore. Tristas back at school, same with B and Heb, I don't know where she is half the time haha. But like lately I've been devoting my weekends to what he wants and ( Read more... )

a chimp that smokes ciggz...holy shit. what the fuck is the world coming to.