i want to tell you
i want to run away
&

i want you to keep me still
i want you to run with me
i want you to nod and not care at all

it's starting again
but i don't think it ever stopped
it's just starting over again

if i had been quick enough.
if i had thought of the words in time.
i would have told you
i'mnotsurewhat
but it would have been something.

if i asked you, would you tell me the truth? or would you just say that it's all still good - that what's left of it is just perfect? would you be honest? (i told you once i only wanted honesty.) would you brave the confrontation?

or are you just going to let me f a  d   e

Chihiro I don't remember it, but my mother told me: once when I was a child, I fell into a river. That river's name was Kohaku. That's your name.
Haku I remember the day when you fell into me. You had dropped your shoe.
Chihiro And you carried me to shallow water. Thank you ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like i can't do this anymore.
i lied - every. single. day. i can't do this anymore.

but i keep holding on, keep hoping on.
i lied again - i hold on, but there's no hope.

i don't know what this is, tell me!
i lied again - i know this is the same as all the others.

yes, aren't i clever?
even as you leave me (&iamfeelingempty)
i'm still free, just as i promised
unchained to you, but see -
see how every move
has become dependent
on being independent
& i am feeling attached

will you still offer your umbrella
when there is no room left?
i'd rather drench in rain alone
than have us both
half wet and cold

forty thousand stars in the evening
look at them fall from the sky

i'd like to think that we'll all come out safely, that at the end we'll all be at the party.
but i know the possibilities.
i'll always be prepared.

catch me if i fall
all alone
waiting to fall

i won't lie, i see the imperfections everywhere, and each does little to remove me, only to tie me closer, who else would care?, only me only me, the imperfections pull me in, they pull me closer, they strangle!

i dream of violence. i dream you & i lock in battle. i dream of the betrayal, the truth breaking open our eyes. i dream of ( Read more... )

you tell me: it doesn't matter it doesn't matter
& you're right: maybe it doesn't matter anymore