For some reason at this point of the night I am becoming very anxious, I'm not sure exactly what this is.  Perhaps, frusterated, or maybe even sad.  I just wish I could get off my ass.

Wow, It's been quite some time since I've written in this damn thing!  Well my life is better than ever.  I'm of course still with my babe nilay.  I love him more than anybody could ever know.  He's my support, he's my best friend, he's my favorite EVER.  Babe if you read this you should know you're incredibly amazing person, you're the only one I ( Read more... )

Oh my jebus christ.  It's only been about a year and half since I've written in here.  thats just crazed.  So my life recently compared to most of the entries in here, has been almost perfect.  A few ups a few downs.  But finally my meds have mostly been working really well.  ANOTHER and most IMPORTANT reason as to why I am so happy is my boyfriend ( Read more... )

I LOVE NILAY SO FUCKING MUCH!!!! FUCK EVERY OTHER GUY I'VE EVER KNOWN!!! HE'S FUCKING PERFECT! FOR ME!!!!

I also hate people. I HATE FLAKES! I almost wish them death! OH MY GOD! Mikey flaked on me yesterday, after inviting me. ooooooooooooooooh god he didnt even have the fuckin decency to call. I am mad. Tomorrow I'm going to sammies with people. and ill see her there with her bf, and get wildly jealous. because i need one. as usual.

I can't stand this. I really can't. Depression and sadness is all around me, how is anybody supposed to ever feel good if everybody else gives off vibes of depression? Nobody can be happy or truely happy. I can only see the sad things in life. It's so true "Nothing gold can stay" yeah everything just falls to shit. Nothing ever makes sense I ( Read more... )

Yeah. I'm not well at all. all this sleep deprivation is killing me. oh, and who called the not going to school thing? Hannah did, Hannah called it. FUCK MAN. why can't I just be normal for one day. function like a normal person!?!?? it's just impossible for me. I suck. I suck so fucking much I want to kick my self repeatidly until my ( Read more... )

Now now now now, these are the days of the true insomnia...because literally I do not sleep like @ ALL. AT ALLLLLLLL. none nada sleep. I am so fucking hyper. I know once I do get to sleep I won't actually be able to wake up tomorrow, I also will not want to go to school. infact, as usual, I am dreading school. I was just on the phone since I ( Read more... )

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I just wanted to write this to everyone that has helped me through all my really tough times in my past and even now. I love you all so much. Those people DEFINITELY know who they are. I have had the best weekend since thursday. I can't even explain. Last night was a bit rocky but, with the help of a certain someone, they really opened my eyes ( Read more... )