I havent written in here and over a year but i got on today and decided to. Not a lot of people read this any more so why not.

The depression is taking over my life again. it makes me wonder why I'm even taking medication. It's not helping.

my friends are getting sick of me and losing patience with me. when they tell me that though it hurts and ( Read more... )

I've switched over to xanga.
So go to xanga.com and my name is the same as here looking4newlife

So i official can't focus on anything. I'm attempting to do homework but it's just not happening. I'm sitting here with mountains of stuff to do but can't do it. It's such a beautiful day out I want to be outside just enjoying this weather for i know winter will be here soon and all i will be able to do is sit in my door room and go crazy. I'm ( Read more... )

Hmmmmm dumb questions from the nurses on campus. I've been sick since Monday and finally went to health services today upon getting kicked out of class from my prof because he didnt want to get sick also. Me and my friend both had to leave. See I have no idea what is wrong with me. I keep getting hot flashes but am to young for that and I dont ( Read more... )

So everyone is going home this week end and I am not. I get to stay here and am quite disappointed. All my good friends are leaving and it makes me sad because college isn't going so well right now. But ya I atleast i will have tons of time to do my homework. woo for that. So ya I'm pretty much sick of crying. My eyes hurt just a bit. I ( Read more... )

What a fun night last night. So i was in a totally horrible mood last night and just having a rough time emotionally and just not feeling very well. So I was talking to my 2 bestest friends on campus. They don't know that but they are my bestest friends. Well lets just say i wasnt in a very good state of mind and bless their hearts they were ( Read more... )

So today was day 2 of classes. Oh my goodness i don't know if I'm ready for all this. I thought that last years classes had prepared me but I was so wrong. There is so much reading to do and like it's boring stuff. Like i have 3 books to read 50 pgs in each book and they arent fun books no textbooks. I thought I was going to die. But I got ( Read more... )

WoW I'm starting to get the swing of college now. My living arrangements aren't the best. My roommate is quite quiet and it kinda sucks and then my suitemates are super opposite of me. They are loud and demanding. I think I need to RISC them. Sorry none of you will get that except leadership journey people. I will officially start class ( Read more... )

So today is my second day of life and I can't pay attention. The fact I have IM right in front of me and internet does not help. But I do enjoy the people here. Everyone is so nice and I can be me. It's amazing. I never want to be in Swartz Creek again. Grand Rapids rocks my socks off. I do think tonight's paper is going to be hard to write ( Read more... )

Yup that's right 4 days left of living in my house before I leave for college. I'm all packed up and ready to go. I'm curious to see how much stuff I can actually cram in my car becasue I'm going alone to college. It's so excieting right now. I'm finishing up my last bits of homework and just getting prepared for all the changes. Today was my ( Read more... )