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night time
nights are the hardest, right now. i am alone.
it just hardens my heart. but i guess i need that.
for what i am going to have to do soon.
court.
All i have are old memories and a cold hard heart.
i hope it doesnt stay hard.
i love my kids, but there are those who i will be tearing apart in a week on the stand.
i have to be ready. and they have ( Read more... ) -
dusting off the cover
with the surmounted chaos that has taken my life, it seems only fair to be open with this place and talk again. so i have been through some shit lately ( Read more... ) -
love and passion
I crave the heat of passion. I have no patience for the chill of loneliness, So much that I can mistake abusive rage or pure insanity for passion ( Read more... ) -
slippery little sucker
my eyes see a nerd when i look into the mirror. I have always seen that, but i just got a glimpse of what others see when they see me. i do not fit the mold of anything; formless. assuming what i need at that time, changing when willed. the only constriction is fear. my limitation, doubt. my only barriar, myself.
realignment in progress. -
missed the target
It seems that I don't find the right people. I was in the shower last night evaluating the people of my past. Most seem to lack integrity or courage or loyalty. The choices in women also show that same lack ( Read more... ) -
concessions
while in relationships, i intentionally got some things wrong while talking so that the girl i'm with will correct me.
is that sexist? -
man hater
Misandry (pronounced /mɪˈsændri/) is hatred (or contempt) of men or boys. Misandry comes from Greek misos (μῖσος, "hatred") and anēr, andros (ἀνήρ, gen. ἀνδρός; "man"). It is parallel to misogyny-the hatred of women or girls. Misandry is also comparable with (but not the same as) misanthropy which is the hatred of humanity in general. The prefix ( Read more... ) -
progress
i found an old album the other day. as i listened to it. i took stock of the time since the band released it ( Read more... ) -
true friends
I was just watching boston legal.
it gets to the obligitory balcony scene where denny crane and alan shure are sipping scotch and smoking cigars and I realise I have never had a true friend.
who will choose me over anyone else.
i kinda need that. -
tweet
so i have just got into this twitter thing. i just don't know who else has it.