It has been awhile since I wrote a journal entry I know. There are several reasons for that, some of the reasons I’d rather not say but some are I just don’t have the time nor the energy to do so. It has been rough here the past month. I am struggling through the best way I can. I am lonely yet I want to be left alone. I know that makes no sense. ( Read more... )

I woke up moody today. I’m not exactly sure why but the last few nights I haven’t been sleeping well, so this may be the reason behind it. I also don’t feel like doing anything. I had to force myself to do my housework, deal with gram and than it took me twice as long to get things done and I’m still not completely finished ( Read more... )

We have the oil furnace man coming here this morning. Normally I wouldn’t care but a couple of years ago I had a bad experience with the oil man delivery guy as well as the man who cleaned the furnace. Both were separate guys but both were perverts. The cleaning man wouldn’t leave my house after he was finished the job and he kept giving me “That ( Read more... )

It was an early morning for both Gram and I. I didn’t know whether the VON was going to show up or not but apparently they called last night and gram never told me. I ended up calling the office at 9 to see if someone was actually coming and within five minutes of calling the VON arrived at the door. I felt a tad embarrassed but what could I do?! ( Read more... )

Today gram got to sleep in again. Not as long as yesterday but still 8:30 is better than getting up at 7. I am dragging ass here today. Those pills make me so tired. This is so nuts. I decided I’d go out this afternoon to see if the fresh air would wake me up some. I got a little area of my garden dug up. The poor crocuses are coming up. It was ( Read more... )

Today was a very long day. I received a call last night from the doctors’ office saying they needed to do more blood work today. Here I promised gram she could sleep in this morning only to later tell her later that she couldn’t. So it was another early morning for us. The VON showed up here at 9. I immediately started calling mom because I knew ( Read more... )

It has been an early morning on my part. I got up extra early to be able to get everything finished before the VON arrived. Gram wasn’t exactly pleased with getting up again at 7 but I have no choice. It takes her so long to get ready and eat and than the mess I have to clean up afterwards it takes a good hour and a half for her to be ready to do ( Read more... )

Gram and I are patiently waiting for the VON to show up. We never had a phone call or anything that someone is going to show up today but according to the doctor last Friday, someone is suppose too today. Sometimes this can become annoying when you have no idea what time they are coming. You have to make sure all pets are put away and be ready for ( Read more... )

Home care was here a little later than normal. Normally with peri care they only stay for about 30 minutes but this girl was here for an hour. She is a real animal lover so when she was finished with grams personal care I introduced her to the 3 dogs and my disabled kitty Lydia. She fell in love with Lydia right away. In fact she wanted to take her ( Read more... )

What a beautiful day outside. It’s incredible. I have noticed my snow drops are open. They are so pretty and so small. Can you tell I’m trying to notice the little things? I have to admit the past 2 weeks have been very rough on me and I wasn’t sure I would pull through all of this but I’m still standing, as you can see ( Read more... )