I ended up not going to see Karyn tonight. I won't get to see her tomorrow either. This is fucking lame ( Read more... )

Maybe tonight won't be so bad after all...I have every intention of spending it with my awesome friend Karyn, who is more than capable of raising my spirits. She can always put a smile on my face ( Read more... )

I have to find my Alissa. I think only Cody understands what I mean by that.

About 2:30 Jeff IMs me and wants me to come over to Cody's...Kickass, that's just what I need. I was so fucking tired of being alone in this house!! So I go over there and Cody, Jeff, Tony, and Richard play Final Fantasy:CC. Watching them play games is like watching a Kevin Smith movie. I can't stop laughing. "No Fucker, that was MY fire stone ( Read more... )

I didn't go to school again today. I know I'm going to be behind but it's really nothing I can't handle. I'm going to be there tomorrow, and I'll take care of shit. Right now I'm taking a break from studying me Econ shit. Confusing stuff...just like everything else in life ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRRTI!!!!

Before I go to sleep I'd like to leave you with some words...

Deep forests impale the sinister mist
Their sorcery taught to the clouds
Who muster like mountains, a fountainous wish
To vex the sweet dead from silk odious shrouds

I think I'm starting to get better. After Cody's advice, and Alissa's sophistry, I have somewhat put together the pieces...Thank you both and I love you ( Read more... )

Today I yeckated around the entire 610 loop 3 razzes...Yeckating always makes me feel better about jeezny. I can sit there and think about everything and it all makes sense. I slooshed to my HIM Pop-disc about 4 razzes through and Vallo's lyrics really tolchock domy. For some reason, I really got something out of what the lyrics were govoreeting... ( Read more... )

Im sorry if that last update was frightening at all. I don't know if any of you know what it's like to breakdown and lose yourself. Niki says I haven't lost her as a friend, which is good, but I still feel like an idiot for doing what I did. I don't know if she can ever forgive me for it. She needs time away, and though it's killing me, I ( Read more... )

I'm not gonna put on this happy little facade bullshit anymore. I've lost it. Iv'e really finally lost it. NOTHING in this world makes any fucking sense at all. Nothing ever happens but bad and happiness never outweighs heartache. If I would have known my life would have ended upo like this, i would have killed myself when i had the chance. Now I ( Read more... )